"Are you sure that you'll leave?" I asked him while looking into your eyes.
"I'm sorry sweety. I don't want to leave but this is for our future too. I'll comeback promise. We can still have communications." He answered. I can't help but my tears are starting to flow again. We already talked about it. But I can't really help to hold back my tears.
"Hush down. I know this is quite hard and difficult but we need to face this. We'll get use to it." He cupped my face and wiped my tears away as I hug him tightly and start to cry like a baby between his arms.
"Can you not leave?" I begged him.
"I'm sorry Ysa. I promise to comeback as soon as possible." He said and kissed my forehead as he walked away through the departure area.
I straightly looked at him. While my tears are still falling from within. I can wait for him. I can.
I turned back and start to walk. I can see families crying because of a person who'll gonna leave them for a while.
I grab a cab and went home. Looking at those airplanes that'll are going to depart. I stick my forehead in the glass window of the taxi as I close my eyes really tight.
This day, This will be the start that I'm going to make myself do things I can't do without him. Do the things I feared of without him. All the things that I can't face and solve without him. Through the years that we have been together, he's always there beside me, Helping me, advising me and making me not to feel bad of something.
As I went home I saw Mom looking worried. I just pass her by and go straight to my room. I can't talk to anyone right now. I just want to be alone for this time around. I want a peace of mind by thinking alone in my room.
I lay on my bed and hug Blen. Blen is the stuffed toy he gave me on our Anniversary. I hug Blen and tears starts to flow again.
Someone knocks on the door that startled me.
"The door is not locked." I shouted and wipe my tears away. I saw Mom entering my room so I fix myself.
"Are you fine?" She asked as she enter and sit on the side of my bed.
"Do I look okay Mom?! Do you think it was all just fine for me the time he depart and go abroad?" I almost shouted at her. I can't really handle my emotions.
"Look. Baby he'll comeback soon. When that time came I'm sure you two are ready for everything." She calmly said as she caress my back that made me cry hard.
"He's miles away from me Mom. I didn't know if what will he do there. What if he finds another girl? What if all the promises he said fades away easily? What if he won't comeback anymore? I'm scared Mom. I want to be on his side." I cried.
"Don't think too much Baby. If he truly loves you he'll always remember those promises. He won't break it. He'll do his best not to take attention to other girls. He won't entertain others. I can feel that he won't broke his promises. Just trust him. Besides you have communications. You can call him through Skype as soon as he arrive in the apartment he'll live on." Mom said and smiled sweetly. I think she's right. I shouldn't over think. I should trust Ivan.
"Thanks Mom" I said and hug her tight. My eyes are starting to close maybe because they were too tired of crying. I should take a nap.
I pulled the hug away and told Mom that I'll take a nap because I'm sleepy.
*2weeks after*
Every night he'll call me on Skype. Sometimes I didn't know that I already slept on the front of the laptop. I'll just woke up that the call is still on going and he's sleeping. He even left messages that I one time called for his name in my dream. He keeps on telling me how was his day is going.
