SECRET LOVE

JUNHOE POV

  Secret love
(Junhoe X Donghyuk Fanfic)
By: Cyanxd  

After the taking my training vocal I'll go ahead to my locker to see my love letters who sent by my admirers. I'm quite popular in this university maybe it is because of my awesome voice? My handsomeness? Sexiness? Hotness? Or I'm just too perfect. Just kidding I may look like a conceited here but trust me, I'm really that perfect even an angel well fall for my handsomeness.

So I open my locker as I expected there's a lot of love letters, well i think 'a lot' isn't the right word for describing this thing but I only knew that word so yeah, I'm a bit lack of vocabulary , I'm very sorry.

From Rose, Hannabell, Dwarf , blah blah, candy.. Candy! Oh! Wait there is it. I found ya! I smiled. Usually I put the trash can all of the love letters I received but this one? From candy? I read those and I felt interested on this letter. I found this letter different from others. This is the reason why I do better except for my crush. Yeah I have a crush but suddenly It seems like he has a bae. I say 'HE' it means he is a boy. I know your thinking that I'm gay shits. But no! I am just attracted to him dont get me wrong! I'm not gay as your thinking! Come here and I'll fuck you so hard to see who's gay you are referring too. I look like overreacted hehehe sorry.

Anyways I open candy's letter then other letters I put it on my bag so that I'll throw it to trash. As I read it I found myself smiling like a fool here. Well seriously if this is a guy I'll totally date him hahaha but suddenly it seems like a girl, well I'll marry her for good if she show her presence to me and I'll fuck her hardly. While reading this letter I bumped up with someone that candy's letter was fell.

"Shit!" I groaned with anger. He obviously didn't saw me huh? I'm too tall to not notice. Gonna kill this!
I look up and look that someone who bumped on me but he ran away immediately. He is a boy. Lucky him I didn't see his face if I did? He'll completely be a dead meat right now.
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"Goo Junhoe!" His him again. Fuck!
"Wae! Waeeeeeee!" I replied with high tone. I'm so irritated to his voice.

"Can u just shut up! Junhoe your gonna attend to our Field trip. I don't fucking care if you wanted or not. So pack the things up, i don't want to get embarrassed with Lee Hi" He said.

"That's it? Okay. Just leave right one I don't want to see your ugly face in my room Hanbin!" I emphasize the word ugly cause he is really ugly as Gorilla's butt. Then he left.

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
I dont want to go field trip! Why the hell I have to go their?! This is really cruel! This is really the end of my pride. I dont to go there cause I dont want to see my crush clinging on his bae. It's fucking hurt so much. I dont know what will gonna happen If I will see those moments maybe I will kill his bae for good. You can do this Junhoe! Your Goo Junhoe! Goo Junhoe fighting! As I've motivated myself.

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"Junhoe! Sit next to Jinhwan" Hanbin commanded. I don't like his way of commanding me all the time. Tsk! That dude is my number one listed on my death note. 😏

I sat next to Jinhwan's and throw myself to my sit. This is worse I'm so much close to the one I keep avoiding for.

"So uhmm. Hi! I'm Jinhwan" The guy on a tiny hieght start a conversation.

"Junhoe right?"

"I'm a bit fan of yours, your a good singer-"

"Can you just shut the fuck up?"
I said to him. I don't want to be bothered. As I expected he shut his mouth. I dislike Noisy ones.

"Donghyuk! Do you have a sick? Your face getting red" ask by Yunhyeong.

"It's nothing"

"Aigoo~ I'm worried Dongiee yah!"

Tsk. This two is really cheap! This is why I don't want to go here. This situation is, I really evaded the most. I'm next to my crush and his bae Yunhyeong. The worst is it's just a distance between to his. Yeah my crush is Donghyuk. I think this is not a crush, i think its love. I always feel the butterfly on my stomach when I see his presence and I always hoping to feel his warmth and kiss his gaze and everything. Fuck! How can I be so much crazy on him? He is really different compare to other. There is this feeling that I wanted to fall for him every second of my life and I'm dying to see those smiled in front me. But shit! How could he be taken by this ugly Yunhyeong? He is nothing compare to me. And I'm nothing without Donghyuk. 😪

Donghyuk is my love since I transfered here at our university. He is the reason why I joined many clubs specially to singing clubs, because I wanted to see him as always and to notice my existence and it worked out but the thing is He never noticed me. He never tries to talk to me and the worst is this feeling is like being dumped by someone who is not given a glanced to me. I hate this feeling. The feeling that I'm hurting so much.

How I wish I am Yunhyeong, sitting next to you, feeling the loved that I've dying for and showing how I loved you and show the world how I'm proud to be yours just like a fantasy but i will make it possible...

It's impossible cause in the first place you never care for me.

You never notice my feeling towards on you.

You never knew how much I loved you since then.

You never see on how I'm dying when I see you smiling, clinging to other.

That smile.....
is only I need to complete my day,

your kiss is only I need to feel the loved that I'm waiting...

and

your presence is only I need to live..

I love you so much..

but I'm fucking coward to confess..
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