Unfaithful Wife | ✔️

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CHRIS

Parang may matalim na kutsilyong humiwa sa puso ko nang marinig ko muli mula sa bibig ni Melissa ang tungkol sa Annulment.

That was my last card to win her back but I guess I'm losing it again. Ngayong binuksan niya uli ang tungkol doon, para akong pinangapusan ng hininga.

She said she wanted to get rid of what she called 'useless marriage' of ours. My mind went completely blank and all I could think was to wrapped and imprisoned her around my arms. Para bang sa pamamagitan nun ay hindi na siya makakawala sa'kin.

I lost my control and so I kissed her. I want to savage and graze her lips so bad and claim what's rightfully mine. I miss her real bad. I wanna smell her sweet scent, feel the warmth of her body against mine and touch her delicate skin again. But she didn't even respond. She didn't even make a single move. She just tightly closed her lips, obviously not welcoming my kiss but I didn't mind.

I was about to lower my kiss down to her neck...I didn't notice she already pulled her hands away from my grip. Her hand was quick to land a hard slap on my face. Nabigla ako... Lalo na nang makita ko ang pag-agos ng luha sa mga mata niya... doon ako tuluyang natauhan.

Mabilis niyang tinakpan ang sarili gamit ang dalawang kamay. Like she was covering her body from some sort of rapist. My heart instantly hammered inside my chest as I saw on her eyes how scared she was to me.

"S-Stay away from me!" Her voice squeaked. "S-Stop this bago pa kita mas lalong kamumuhian." Humihikbing pakiusap niya. Her eyes were swelling with tears and were inflaming with so much fury.

Umalis ako sa ibabaw niya. I sat and cursed myself incessantly because of my stupidity!

Pinangako ko kay Margaux na hindi ako gagawa ng makakasama kay Melissa pero anong ginawa ko? I hurt her and made her cry again!

Patuloy siya sa impit na pag-iyak. Dinagsa ng konsensya ang dibdib ko.

You're such an asshole! Look at what you've done to her?! Mas lalo lang siyang natakot at nawalan ng tiwala sa'yo! Goddamn it! Sigaw ng isip ko.

Hinawakan ko ang braso niya para sana aluhin siya pero para siyang napapasong hinawi ang mga kamay ko.

"Don't you ever touch me again! I hate you! Go to hell!" galit na galit at nanginginig na sigaw niya sa'kin.

I let out a deep sigh as I feel my heart felt like being squeezed tightly. Ang sakit marinig mula sa kanya ang mga salitang iyon. But I know, I deserved it. She loathed me even more now.

"I'm sorry, Melissa... Hindi ko sinasadya." Hingi ko ng paumanhin. Hindi ko na kayang ibaling ang tingin ko sa kanya dahil sa ginawa ko. Hiyang hiya ako sa sarili ko.

Hindi ito agad nagsalita. Kinalma niya muna ang sarili niya mula sa pag-iyak. Makalipas ang ilang minuto ay tuimigil na rin ito sa pag-iyak at umupo na rin ito sa kama.

"Hindi mo sinasadya?! Jan ka talaga palaging magaling! Wala ka na ba talagang alam na ibang gawin kundi saktan ako? You're just giving me more reason to push through our annulment! I don't want to live in misery with you anymore... So yes, maybe that was the right thing to do, na sana matagal ko na dapat ginawa!" Mariin niyang sinabi bago siya umalis sa kama at nagtuloy tuloy sa paglabas ng kwarto.

Kahit hindi ko na alam kung paano pa ako hihingi ng kapatawaran sa kagaguhang ginawa ko sakanya ay hinabol ko parin siya. I know words aren't enough para mapatawad niya ako.