One Direction After Marriage ( a 1D Fanfic )

62# We're going in circles ..

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Same mistakes -One direction

Bethany's POV :

I woke up today . Just like any other day . Depressed , and miserable .. alone..

I am not letting Louis sleep with me on the same bed . The grudge and hatred i feel towards him is so much . I know that he didn't push me off the stairs but that didn't make it any better because if he had just one bit of faith in me , and if he knew how much I loved him , he wouldn't have accused me with such a terrible thing !! I loved him ,but he accused me of cheating .. with my ex-boyfriend whom I hated alot !! But now ?! Now I don't care about anyone .. all men are just like each other . They forgets their mistakes so easily but never forgets YOUR mistakes ...

I was sitting on my bed .. with a messy bun and tear-stained cheeks .Black rings round my puffy eyes. What hurts the most were the words he called me .. slut. Slut was the first word that popped into his mind although he knew so fuckin' much that I loved him !!

I heard a faint knock on the door then it clicked open .. Louis got in and placed a tray of food in front of me . I looked the other way . "Bethany please eat anything .please" he said

"Just go away " i said flatly

"Just ea-"

"JUST GO TO FUCKIN' HELL !! I HATE YOU . DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND !! I HATE YOU SOO MUCH !!" I started crying hysterically throwing a pillow straight at his face. He was shocked . I jumped off the bed and got some jeans and a dark grey blouse and ran to the bathroom . I quickly jumped in my clothes and ran out of the house ignoring Louis yells and protests.

I ended up at an unfamiliar café . I sat there and started crying . I needed to breathe fresh air alone .. I don't wanna talk to a therapist even if it was Rose .. I need someone to understand me without talking ..

"I am sorry ma'am . May I help you ?!" I heard a familiar voive and i looked up immediately. Jack .

"Bethany ?! Why are you crying ?!" His tone was soft , unlike his rough treatment few days ago since the .. incident..

"You're the last person I think I wanna talk to now " i said slowly with a cracking voice .

"Bethany , I know that I am a devil in your eyes ,but trust me I can be your friend since you didn't let me be with you as a lover .."

"You're a devil . I was so wrong when I didn't listen to Luke .. I can't believe how much I were Stupid and naïve !! Everytime I remember that I trusted you .. I get the urge to slap myself . You're a real devil . What did .. what did i do to you to make you hate me so much ?! To make your only goal is ruining my life ?! " i was crying nonstop now .

"I neven meant it !! I loved you Bethany with all my heart " he looked at me with regret and love in his eyes and in a second I felt that I would believe him ...

I let out a dry laugh and looked at him.

"That's why you cheated on me with my bestfriend when i left everything for you ?! And thats why you insisted on letting my husband mistrust me and get my baby killed ?!" I raised my voice and by now everyone was looking at us .

"What?! What baby ?! Tell me what baby ?!" He kept asking and I broke down crying . He sat next to me on the table and took my hand in his rubbing circles on my palm . He knows that this calms me down .

"Tell me what happened please ?!" He whispered . His voice was shaking

"After you left Louis kept fighting me and calling me a cheater till i fell down the stairs and when they took me to the hospital i knew that I lost my baby even before I knew i were pregnant . I lost my first baby " i cried and he pulled me to his chest.

"I am sorry bethany . I really am . I wasn't thinking . I just felt that I missed you alot after I saw your picture in a magazine . I felt that he took my girl . I didn't mean to ruin your life " he tried to defend himself

"It's not the time to blame each other . It won't get my baby back . It was my fault from the beginning that I didn't listen for my big brother " i said and his face held regret ..

"I didn't tell you .. he may rest in peace " he said

"Oooooh do you still remember !! You were not by my side when I lost my everything . He was my everything " tears skipped my eyes to the table

"I am sorry Bethany . I know that you hate me so fuckin' much but forgive me . For the days we made each others happy . We were young and we were not thinking . Please say it "

"Say what ?!" I asked

"That you forgive me ."he begged

"I forgive you Jack .. Just because I don't have the effort to hate anyone anymore .. I forgive you " i said softly and he sighed in relief "you couldn't imagine what a huge burden was lifted off my shoulder now " he smiled and gave me a very warm hug.

"I should go now " i sighed and pulled away

"Okay ,but will you please promise me something ?!" He asked

"What ?!" I asked

"Call me if you need anything " he said

"I will try Jack." I smiled faintly and stood up . He lead me outside the restaurant and gave me a last hug the left me to walk home on my own ...

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I was sitting on the sofa in the living room . That's the first time I leave my bedroom since that day . Louis tried to talk to me but i didn't bother to answer any of his questions ,so he left to the guest room and left me on my own . For that i was grateful .

I was reading a novel called 'a tale of two cities' . I love that story alot . Every time I read it I get really touched .

"Be brave . It is perhaps better for the poor little child to die in this way than to live . He died in a moment , without pain .Could he have lived without pain ?! " that was the sentence that made my eyes water again . Maybe it was true ?! I dunno . I think that since I stopped crying and started to get myself together again ,i am on my way to fogive Louis.

"BETHANY" Louis screamed startling me . My book dropped to the floor and my eyes widened when I saw his red face and his veins that stuck out of his neck .

"What ?!" I asked and he handed me his phone . I took it and as I was looking at what he was talking about he said with hatred and anger in his voice .."how will you defent yourself this time ?! How will you make me believe that you're not a cheater ?! Well Bethany if you don't know I am not that stupid !!"

"These don't mean anything !! This is bullshit " i looked at his with wide eyes . Here we go again !!

"Well I think If you hated him , You wouldn't be hugging him that way miss !!" He yelled .

"IT'S NOT LIKE THIS I SWEAR !!" I started crying now .

"THEN WHAT IS IT ?!! " he screamed and I remained silent . Anything I will say will be understood the wrong way.

"Exactly " he whispered and left me . That's when everything turned black again ...

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A/N : Here is your updatee :) this chapter is dedicated to @Louran :) thanks for being such great and supportive readers . I have some Good surprizes for the next chapter so stay tuned :P

Chapter's question : now when there is another misunderstandment .. do you think Louis and Bethany will sort this out .. or end up like Silver and Harry ?!

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