Sugar Honey (MikuXLen oneshots)

friends

Friends.

That is the word we use to describe our relationship. And of course, I'm proud that I have 2 of the bestest friends you could get on this earth. Caring, funny, trustworthy and understanding. Both of them are, and I couldn't be more content with my life.

When we were 6 years, Kaito introduced Miku to me. Back then she was already really social and was bombarding me with questions, if it were about my likes or about how I thought about things, many questions were suddenly shot at me and I didn't even had time to answer them. Normally I would be irritated by such kind of person, but for some reason... I didn't mind when it came from her.

It didn't take long, in the next 15 minutes we were talking like we knew each other for our whole life. I was really happy, I got a new friend and back then it was a HUGE accomplishment (it still is), I am not that extroverted.

The days after she always came to play with us, even if it was raining outside and I was playing at home with Kaito, we always hear a knock on the door and always when we opened it, we were greeted by the kind girl, our precious friend. No matter the weather, no matte which day she was always here. Helping us and of course...

we did the same.

We had gone to the same schools together, lived our lifes together and shared everything. We were inseperatable, nothing was impossible when we were together. Even though rumors were spreading about us, that there was an love triangle between us. We fought through it like it was nothing. It was truly great, no, amazing! Until it all happened, what was even worse... I didn't even notice until it was too late.

Suddenly my mouth started to feel bitter when she adressed me as a friend. I didn't know why and soon as I adressed her as a friend too... I felt it too. I started to feel sick, my heart started beating faster and I felt really hot. My friends were worrying, but I always shook it off. It felt weird... lying to my friends... it was the first time I did that...

Soon after it started to lessen a bit and I was feeling better, but then my heart started aching, I started to get sudden mood swings. But when I was alone, it never happened. I was clueless, I didn't know what happened and (as much as I didn't want to) I asked my sister if she knew anything. But she giggled and said that I would "understand when the time comes". She thought it was amusing and that left me with even more question marks.

But then the day came, when harsh reality hit me...

I was going to Kaito's house, I wanted to tell him and Miku what I felt, deciding that walking around with this weird feeling wasn't always the best way to deal with it. But when I walked to the front door, past the garden I heard Miku's and Kaito's voice, whispering among themselfs and suddenly I heard Kaito shout: 'I LOVE you, Miku! I always did! Please accept me!' My heart started racing again and my temperature too. I felt a strange feeling towards Kaito I never had before: I felt betrayed... and when I thought about it, why I suddenly felt all these emotions. The picture was finally clear and I realized:

I was in love with Miku...

I always had a crush on her, from the day we met until now... I never realized, I never paid attention to it and everything made sense now. Everything question was suddenly answered and I felt.. agonizing, knowing that my best friend had the same feelings. But that wasn't the worst part, the worst part was when... she accepted...

I don't even know how I'm supposed to explain how it felt. It was like a hundered, no, a thousand needles sticking into your heart, slowly, painful and it was torturing, I can't even tell you how painful it was,... all my thoughts were wiped clean and were replaced by millions others. How was this going to affect our friendship? Did those two also had feelings for each other for years? Or did it just recently started?

I didn't know... I don't want to know. And before I knew it, 10 minutes had already passed, and something warm slid down my cheeks. In daze, I lifted my hand up to touch it and I let out a chuckle. Funny... I never thought that the first time I would cry in so many years... would be because I was heartbroken. 'I'm such a selfish person' I murmered as I slid down to the ground, trying to catch my breath. Trying to calm down and stop tears. Trying to make me look presentable and pretend nothing happened so our friendship could continue on...

But the more I tried to hide everything, the more my throat felt dry, the more sadness was overflowing me, the more I was sniffling. I couldn't control my emotions anymore, after so many years... I never thought this would be my breakdown...

But when I asked myself "why am I even crying? Shouldn't I be happy for them?" I knew the answer immediately: Because I am selfish. I want her all to myself, I don't want to share he, I'm just a selfish person who can't even be happy for his dearest friends.

Deciding that I wasn't going to calm down like this, I stood up walked down the street until I couldn't take it anymore and ran home. Slamming the door behind me, ignoring my sister's worried questions, I just entered my room,

and cried.

~*~

The next few days, I was "sick". I didn't leave my room and Rin even threatend to slam the door open if I didn't show myself. But when she heard my broken voice she immediately left me alone for awhile.

I got a thousand calls and messaged from Miku and Kaito. Asking if I was okay. I ignored them all, I didn't want to do anything. The only thing I wanted, was closing my eyes and fall asleep, so my dreams would carry all my pain away.

After two days, I could control myself a little more. I could surpress it, so you wouldn't notice if I was happy or not. And when I got to school the next day, I was immediately attacked by my friends, bombarding me with questions... I lied again...

When it was lunch, Kaito and Miku wanted to tell me the happy news. I knew it was gonna happen, but I hoped not so soon. I wasn't recovered yet, I still felt horrible. When they said it with such happy faces, such passion... I was almost breaking down again. But I surpressed it with a fake smile, my first fake smile...

~*~

It had been a week, my heart still aches when I see them together, but I learned to surpress it a little.

I convinced myself that I should keep silent, I don't want to have an awkward friendship with my friends. I don't want it to change it even more... I need to accept and be happy for my precious friends. I need to support them with everything I have. What friend would I be if I don't?

'Len, me and Miku are going on a date. When we come back, let's play some games at the arcade!' Kaito smiled happily and so did Miku. I smiled back, a fake smile. 'Sure, but don't let leave me waiting' don't leave me alone, was what I wanted to say...

Kaito's grinned, while Miku waved. Arms hooked together they left the door, while I was wishing them a nice evening...

I can't be selfish, not after what those two gave to me. For now it is good as it is... For now the term "friends" is enough...

We are three friends, two in love, one left heartbroken...

A/N and I'm back after so much time! Please forgive me! I kind of forgot in the vacation and school broke my back with all the homework...

It felt this was too sad, so if you guys would like it. I can make a part two, which is an happy ending. But I felt that I should try this too ;)

Have a nice day :3

And don't forget to tell me if you guys want a part two!