Dark to Light

Chapter One

My bedroom was dark. The one small bit of light came from my computer screen. This all I did was sit at home on my computer. I felt like it was where I belonged. No one to judge you on your looks or your body just you, your thoughts and personality. I loved it!

The thing that seemed to give me happiness in life other then my computer was Ariana. Ariana Grande the way her voice sounded when you first listened to it. It was magic. The way her hair fell in perfects curls. The way no one could bring her down. She was my inspiration and my life. I knew if it wasn't for her my life would be a hold lot more miserable.

When I wasn't obsessing over Ariana or on my computer I was depressed. More depressed than you could ever believe. I had a stash of blades under my bed, but I was too afraid to use them on my wrists in fear that my mom would see. So instead I cut on the upper part of my thighs. I mean who's gonna see that I never wear shorts any way I'm always in my sweatpants.

I'm always thinking to myself " what if I met Ariana? What if she was standing right here in front of me" I believe that will be the day when all my problem disappear and never come back. "But come on what chance in the world do I have of meeting Ariana" I said to myself. I knew it was just a dream and I should never get my hopes up to high just to have them crushed.

I went to bed that night with sad thought because I knew I had school tomorrow aka prison. School was pretty much the worst place in the world. The lunches tasted like plastic, you sat hard chair that made you butt hurt and the worst part of all is that there are people! Ugh I hated people! Unless you are someone I met online I probably don't like you. And I was ok with liking no one I mean no one liked me so what's the point.