Once Upon a Tour (ONE DIRECTION FANFICTION)

Chapter 15: Awkward

Harry's P.O.V

I woke up early and cooked breakfast for the boys since they are still sleeping. Last night, we packed our things for our Bora Trip tomorrow morning, I am way excited about this trip! Finally, we'd get the chance to relax and enjoy our stay here in Philippines!

Last night we also talked about how Kathryn confessed to Niall, and also how Lauren almost confessed to Louis. Louis felt bad about that, I meant he felt bad that Lauren confessed that he like Louis as just a friend. We told Louis that there's nothing bad to feel about unless he likes Lauren, which is a bad idea because he's with Eleanor. Of couse, we dont like third party in a relationships.

I also thought about Julia, we've been so close together this past few weeks. We're always together and I enjoy her company so much. I'm still confused if I have feelings for her. Of course, I dont want to admit it first among the five of us. I am Harry Styles I shouldn't be the cheesy or softy in the group. Besides, if I tell the boys about my confused feelings for Julia their just gonna tease us and things will get awkward, and I dont want that to happen.

After I cooked breakfast I wake up the boys so we can eat together, typical breakfast with the boys.

"So later's the flight huh.. you guys ready?"Zayn asked as he eat his spoonful food.

"Ready as ever! I packed almost everything!" Louis said sarcastically as he imitate a girl's voice.

We all laughed as we continue to eat.

"Why are you so excited about this Zayn? I mean since last night you keep on bugging me about the details of the trip." Liam said as he eyed Zayn who is sitting in front of me.

Zayn smiled and paused as he answer Liam, "Well, I want to spend time with you guys and also the girls, especially Julia."

The moment I heard Zayn's words, I felt annoyed and somehow felt bad. I dont know why, but It felt really wrong. Am I jealous? No, it can't be.. Julia is not even my girl, why should I get jealous in the first place? I thought.

"Really Zayn? you want to spend time with Julia? I dont think Harry here will allow you, right Haz?" Niall teased as he nudged my shoulder causing me to drop my fork. I heard Liam and Louis giggled a little.

Zayn turned to me, eyeing me as if he wants to say something.. then he said, "Harry, would you mind if I borrow Julia for a whole day or two once we got to the beach?"

There was a sudden painful feeling I felt, It seems like something's heavy inside my heart. I dont know what to say, I dont know if I should let Zayn have Julia. I can't stand a day without her, especially now that we're so close to each other. 

I'm speechless for a second, but then I managed to say, "Yah, sure no problem man.. it's not like we're dating or something.. you don't need to ask permission to me, we're not boyfriend-girlfriend ya know."Lie Lie Lie, it's all a lie! What I had just said are all lie.. Of course, its a problem man, as a matter of fact I want to spend time with Julia too. I thought.

Zayn gave me a genuine smile then broke off from my gaze, while Niall nudged me again and gave me a 'dude-seriously-are-you-sure-about-that' look. It seems like only Niall's the one who feels and understands me right now, because like me he's also confused about his feelings for Kathryn too. It's too obvious that Niall likes Kathryn but I dont know what's taking him too long to admit it, maybe he's really confused too like me. I gave Niall a small nod and continue to eat my food.

"Well then, everything's settled." Zayn said as he finished his food, he got up from his seat and headed to our bedroom. Probably to get ready for later's flight.