Jack Daniel's And Roses

8

Meygan's P.O.V

It was almost 1 when I got home tonight, the diner was busier than usual and we kept it open until 12:30 for some truckers who had just got off the road. I walked in barefoot holding my shoes in my hand and dropped them when I made it inside, I felt like I was gunna drop right there when I saw Travis come down in only his underwear and his wet hair.

Travis looked at me and smiled "Hey you're home." He walked over and kissed me softly, my hands ran down his toned abs and I felt his body shiver. I looked up at him and the way he was looking at me made my entire body heat up. I couldn't keep eye contact with him without getting hot, this was just the affect it seemed he was looking for. He unzipped my uniform in the back slowly and I slipped out of it like it melted right off.

Even though Travis had seen me naked thousands of times, here I was covering my body with my arms like a little school girl. Travis looked at me and looked confused "What's wrong, you're usually so open about your body." I shrugged "I don't feel comfortable right now....I just wanna go get in bed." Travis nodded and picked me up "You seem exhausted." He carried me in the room and put me in one of his shirts and laid me in bed and got in with me. I snugged into his chest and decided it was time to ask him "Would you ever want kids?" Travis kissed my head "Is that what's been on your mind all day? Kids?" I nodded "I just want to know. I don't want to ever get pregnant and you not want children then you leave me, if that happened I wouldn't be able to live with myself that I ran the one guy that actually cared for me off."

Travis kissed my head again and rubbed my hair "Hell, for you, I'd move back to Texas, get us a nice house in a nice community, with a white picket fence and all that shit, just to raise a family with you. You're it for me Meygan Elizabeth, I ain't running off either."

I smiled at him, he smiled back and kissed me "I Promised didn't I? Whatever you want we can do."

I laid my head on his chest tracing one of the swirls inked into his skin before kissing his chest. "We still have six months before this thing doesn't work." I held up my arm showing him the bracelet and laughing, Travis started to laugh as well "This is the reason Plan B doesn't work on you! This stupid bracelet you have on!" He was laughing and so was I "Maybe God wants us to have kids." Travis smiled "This poor kid is gunna have some fucked up parents." I smiled and kissed him "But it wouldn't trade us for the world." Travis kissed back "mmm. Well we better start house hunting for one here, because I know your not leaving Cali, and to be fair I don't want to either." I climbed on top of him "I'm not worried about that right now, I'm trying to think about all the different ways I can tease you in bed." Travis smiled "How about you take that shirt off and give me a strip tease." I smiled "Mmm. I like that idea."

Our night didn't end till around 7 that morning.

Next Morning....

I woke up with a killer headache and a foul taste in my mouth, I didn't have work today thank goodness and I was staying in bed all day even if it killed me, after everything I've went through I deserved a day in bed. I rolled over on my back and pushed my hair out my face, Beyoncé's song Flawless was a lie, no woman wakes up flawless every single day. In walked the Stallion, I mean my husband and immediately became prince charming with a cup of coffee. I took the coffee and drank some and sighed. I felt content with my life now, I got up and put on sweats deciding a shower would be in order later. I looked at Trav who let out a chuckle. "May I asked what's so funny?" I tried my best to me sassy but my tiredness made me sound like a joke. Travis looked at my sweats. "Unless you wanna walk around all day with backwards sweats I suggest you fix that." I groaned and sat my coffee down and fixed my sweats before checking my belly button piercing and putting my shirt down.

Travis looked at my stomach, probably thinking about the same thing as me. I looked at him "wonder when I'd have to take out my piercing." Travis sighed "maybe bout 2-3 months in I don't know.I sighed "maybe we just shouldn't be parents.... I mean come on Travis looked at us!"Travis stood over me and kissed my head "calm down. We'll be fine." I shook my head "I can't Travis. I just can't....how are we gonna be parents!"Travis looked at me, his face was calm and he kissed my head and rubbed it for reassurance "it's okay."

I felt sick, my stomach was churning and I felt as if I was on a boat, something wasn't setting right with me. "Trav... when was the last time you had something to drink?" Travis shrugged its been while.... I don't really know why?" I shook my head " just asking baby...." if it wasn't Travis drinking what was it, was there something I was missing, a sign I didn't read, my stomach wasn't settling and I knew something had to be wrong.

I walked downstairs to the kitchen, Travis followed behind me and grabbed a beer out the fridge, at least it wasn't whiskey. "Trav have you ate anything today?" Travis smiled "Nahh but ill be fine I promise, this is the only one I'm having today." I could feel my heartbeat rising as I watched him use the counter to open the bottle and chug it, I knew that is what the feeling was about.

Hours Later.....

I knew it was gunna happen, even though I begged and pleaded for him to stop, it still ended up happening.

He was about 6 bottles in when the first hiccup came and I knew it was starting.....

Bottle 7: he kissed me told me he loved me

Bottle 8: his hands kept roaming even after I swatted them away

Bottle 9: he was getting angry I wouldn't let him touch me

Bottle 10: Shattered on the wall behind me when I ducked as he screamed.

Bottle 11: cut my leg as I ran away from him.

Bottle 12: Hit me in the back of the head after being dragged back downstairs.

Everything was black..... It was dark.....and All I could hear was a familiar song playing....

Feet don't fail me now, Take me to the finish line, oh my heart it breaks every step that I take, but I'm hoping at the gates they'll tell me that you're mine.

Born to Die by Lana Del Rey poured out the speaker, I wanted out of the coldness along with the familiar coldness of the metal around my wrist. "Travis.....I know your down here just please... you've had too much to drink let me go... this isn't good for the baby... this isn't healthy...lets just talk"

I could hear Travis laugh then see a orange tip light up, it was his cigarettes.... "Why the hell should I let you go? so you can run off and tell Jhanene that I fucking held you hostage? I think the fuck not. Now I need you to do something for me and if you promise to do it ill let you go..." I nodded and listened "You're going to suck me, I'm tired and I want a blow job, you're a touch bitch to fight and to try and put you in hand cuffs too, hell you were knocked out still fighting."

I sat there quiet, the lights came on, Travis was only in his joggers, This bat shit crazy man must have been out his god damned mind. "No, I'm not-" I was cut off with a slap to the face "Try again." He took a swig of the Jack in his hand and got closer to me, his breath reeked of complete alcohol " I said no!" I took about two more slaps to the face with another "Try Again."

About 30 minutes had past and Travis' abuse had went from slapping to punching to kicking. the third kicked landed to my stomach with so much force I felt as if a Rib had been broken...all i could do is think back to when I was younger....

I ran to my mother crying about the boy who had pulled my hair, she put out the cigarette she had and fixed her platinum blond hair "Oh honey, if a boy picks on you and is rude to you it means he likes you. Your daddy used to do the same to me."

Only at the time she hadn't told me they didn't meet until college, she didn't tell me she met him when he was stationed in Germany.

I laid there in pain, in the darkness, I touched my scalp. it was sore and tender, I felt something wet in my hair, most likely blood. I sat up and covered my face. When a boy is rude and picks on you he likes you.... then Travis must love me right? I touched my side, it was tender and hurting. I laid down there and slept for the rest of the night crying, like a good girl should, showing the boys they had won, because that was the circle of life and if you disobey it you die.