We're both on Cloud Nine- Zayn Malik Fan Fic

8: Midnight Secrets

Rydell's POV

I was deep in sleep when I heard my door creek open.

"Rydell!" Zayn whispered

"What? Go away!" I said swatting my hands around and turning over to face the other side of the bed.

In the drifts of trying to go back to sleep I felt the right side of the bed sink and my hair cautiously being played with.

"She chose him over me." Zayn whispered

"What?" I asked rubbing my eyes and turning to face him

He looked like a small, vulnerable child. His cheek rested on the palm of his hand as he tugged on a small strand of my hair and started to twirl it with his fingers.

"She chose him." he repeated

"Zayn, I don't know what you're talking about."

He let a sigh out and started to explain

"You asked me what happened between my mum and I. She chose him."

He paused for a second. He seemed to be in another world, away from reality, as he began to speak.

"When I was 17 my mum had lost her job at the office she worked in. We lived off of the savings she had while she looked for another job. When we no longer had money I decided to look for a job. I had known your dad through Charlie. We used to live close to each other and Charlie heard about our situation so he gave me small simple jobs I can accompany him on with your dad. The thing is my mum didn't know what exactly I did. I just started to come with loads of money at times and she would question it. I would brush her off by saying I've worked a lot."

He stopped playing with my hair and turned to face the cealing.

"When I started to come home I noticed she wouldn't be there at night. It became so often that sometimes she wouldn't even go home to sleep and would show up in the morning. So one day I decided to follow her and I did. I followed her to a hotel where she went into the room and came out about 3 hours later. I went back home and thought about it. After your dad died, about a week later, Charlie and I were out taking care of a shipment with Phill. Phill had a party going on and he said he called for fun. Turns out the fun was my mum. She was selling herself to get money-"

"Stop you don't have to tell me." I said but it's as if he couldn't hear me. He was in a completely different world.

"I was so mad and upset. I couldn't even speak to her. A week later she said she had stopped. The she had found The man of her life. It was Phill. And when Phill found out who I was he told my mum that I had stole from him. That I had somehow found his stash of drugs and sold it."

Zayn had suddenly stopped. He was stuck in the moment that it seemed he was choking up. His hazel eyes shining with the moonlight that beamed through my bedroom window.

"And she believed him. Every word he said. She started to scream at me. Telling me I'm so ungrateful for everything I had. So the day after I told Charlie I wanted to go away from Bradford so he sent me here to London. I learned everything about the shipments and started to manage them. Six months after I left my mum started to contact me. She apologized and I forgave her. She started to ask for money and I gave her more than she asked for. It became frequent that she asked for more money every week. I asked her where the money went and she said she would give it to Phill."

I could see Zayn tearing up as he talked about his mum.

"And one day Phill made up another lie about me and she believed him. She chose him over me." he finished

For some reason I literally felt that my heart hurted. It felt as if my chest was closing in. Zayn tried to hold in his tears as if he were afraid I would make fun of him for crying. I took Zayn into my arms and hugged him tightly. I reassured him that it was okay to cry and that he needed to let it out and he did. He had his head resting on my chest as he held on to me and cried.

"I can't say I understand what you're going through" I said to him as I rubbed his back

"I just really don't know what it is to be chosen over someone but I'll just ask you one thing. What if you're mum really is sorry? What if you're mom needs the money for something really important. Zayn, your mum is asking for you to give her a chance. What if tomorrow you wake up and find out she died? Will you live the rest of your life asking yourself what her real intentions were this time? Just promise me that while she's here, while she's alive, you'll at least ask why. Why does she need the money and just please forgive her. I'm not telling you that it'll take the pain of being chosen over someone else away but it'll be worth in the long run."

"But I can't forget what she did." he spoke

"I'm not telling you to forget what she did. Just put it this way. I don't want anyone to go through the same pain I did. The pain of losing a family. If I were in your place I would forgive my mum just because she's my mom. Believe it or not but even moms make mistakes sometimes. I would do anything, give anything, just to be able to tell her that I love her."

Zayn stayed quiet for a while as I ran my fingers through his hair sometimes twirling it in my fingers.

"You really miss your parents don't you?" he asked

"I ask myself sometimes how my life would be if they were here. Like would I have gone to college? Would I have been a stuck up rich bitch?" I laughed causing Zayn to laugh for the first time tonight

"Well you are stuck up..." he joked

"Ha ha. Very funny."

He looked up and gave me a small smile. His eyes were a bit red and watery from the crying he had done. I wiped off a small rear he had in his cheek.

"You know you look better without all the dark make-up? I like your freckles." he complemented as he poked my cheek

"I think I look ugly."

"No. You look pretty."

I felt the redness creep up to my cheeks.

"Thank you." I smiled

He placed his head on my chest again.

"Can I stay here tonight?"

"Yeah. I saw there was a broadcast on thunderstorms tonight."

"Scary cat."

"Shut up."

He laughed "Good night Ry."

I placed my head on top of his "Good night Zayn."

I realized that I had seen a side of Zayn that I thought didn't exist. I realized we were both imperfect.

And just maybe that what I liked about him.

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Cute ain't it?

Am I the only one who hasn't heard Midnght Memories ? I'm trying to wait till it's actually released but I might break >͵<

ILY <3

Should their ship name be Zydell or Rayn?  lol I like Zydell better . Ha