「 Letting Go 」
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In the years that I have known you, you have grown to mean so much. We grew up together, played together, laughed together, cried together. I cherished every moment. Yet, after your parents died, you became a completely different person. You are not the Ciel I knew. No more smiles cross your face. Your lovely voice sounds the same, emotionless, no matter what you say. At times, you treat me like a stranger. And, though you tried to hide it, I know that Sebastian is not a normal butler, and that he will one day take you away, some place where I will never see you again. These are my final moments with you. I would loathe living my life in agony over something long since past, so I have decided to let go. I want to love you, Ciel, deeply, eternally. But, that is not the life God planned for me. You are not meant for me. Accepting that undeniable truth has been undeniably heart-breaking, and I don't know why it has to be this way. I would do anything if it meant our old days would return to us, and you would be happy. Perhaps, in another world, you love me too, and we are living out the life I, in this world, can only dream of. In this world, I've no choice but to forget these feelings. They will get me no where. You will, no matter what, always mean something to me. I will never forget the memories we made, and the special times we shared. You were my light in the darkness. - ✧
