Letters To Those I Love Dearly

To: My dead crush

Dear Casey,
How have you been? You know how I have been, but you don't...well I have been quite awful. You were and still are one of the most important people in my life. I needed you then, and well I need you right now.. You are not here any more. Why? The one thing you can not live without, water, killed you. How is that fair? It is not. Casey, I miss you so much. During class I cry because I swear I can smell you, I cry when I go to sleep, I cry in the bath, I cry so much I fear I have no more tears left. Everyone thinks I am okay and that it does not hurt me so much, but they are dead wrong. Although I may be moving on does not mean I don't still feel the love I once embraced to you. I told you everyday I loved you, but you never believed me. yes, I was mad at you before you left me, but I still loved you, and I always will. I feel guilty for pushing you away and not letting you love me. I was so nervous because I knew my parents hated you and that is the only reason why we never became a couple again. I made so many mistakes before everything happened and I still continue to make mistakes. I know it is only human, but I don't feel human anymore. I wish you knew how much I loved and love you....Until the end of my life, until the end of the world, until the end of time, I will always love you. I love you Casey Manuel Smith Jr. Forever and Always!!....