Beautiful Mess | jb

Chapter 9 - Tour visit

I finally arrived at London in the afternoon hours of October 11th, the day of Justin's first show in London. He had organized for me to get picked up at the airport and we drove to the arena immediately without dropping off my bags at the hotel or anything. I was beyond excited to finally see Justin again. A part of me was scared though. What if things had changed? What if he changed his mind about me? What if things got awkward? I was praying for everything to be alright. Apart from that there was the fact that I was still a virgin. He probably had expectations and it scared me. It wasn't that I absolutely didn't wanna sleep with him. Just, I would have to tell him, and things might get awkward. Plus, I was scared. What if I messed up?

Marie, calm your tits! This most likely won't happen. He probably doesn't even like you in that way. There was one kiss and a sleepover. The rest was completely friendly. Don't get ahead of yourself.

As we arrived at the arena I got checked and they searched my bags. Right, as if I was bringing a knife or something, clearly they didn't know who they were talking to. After they found me to be trustworthy - or at least unarmed - they gave me some all-access pass to wear at all times to be able to walk around the backstage area. The guy that picked me up at the airport, Mikey, showed me around a little. He walked around like he owned the place, probably part of the crew. After walking through endless corridors - I already knew I would get lost at some point - we made it to Justin's dressing room. Mikey set my luggage down and knocked on the door. Here we go, I was extremely nervous right now. Nobody answered, which didn't seem to bother Mikey as he just walked in and set my luggage down in the room. I quickly scanned the room for Justin who was nowhere to be seen, so I looked at Mikey expectantly.

"He is probably still with a make-a-wish-kid. The room is just across the hall. He'll probably be here in a couple of minutes. You can wait here, I'll let him know you're here. If you need anything, just help yourself." he told me with a wink referring to the snacks and drinks on a table at the side of the room. Very kind of him to offer me Justin's stuff.

"Okay. Thank you." I said and nodded at him. He left and my first intention was to find a cable and an adapter as well as a plug to charge my phone. I couldn't find any plugs except for one and that was used by a huge golden iPhone six plus what I assumed was Justin's phone. My phone was dead tough and I really needed to tell my mum and the twins that I arrived safely. So, I just unplugged his phone. It had probably been charging forever and had enough battery. I plugged mine in and went on to sent out my texts.

"Wow, you're really there?" Felicia texted me.

"Yeah. You could say so. I even got a backstage pass. :D" I replied.

"Sent me a photo, please!" She demanded. I thought about it for a minute and decided against it.

"No photos rule - Sorry." I texted her. They had told me that upon entering the venue.

As I had just made it over to my bag to empty my water bottle, the door swung open revealing Justin who smiled at me brightly. "You made it!" He said excitedly. I got up from kneeling next to my bag to face him. "Yeah. I did." I said with a smile and walked toward him. He opened his arms to give me a hug, which I gratefully returned. His cologne invaded my nose again and it smelled so heavenly. He was wearing a T-shirt and pulled me close. His body heat radiated off his chest and his presence gave me this warm fuzzy feeling. Right in that moment I knew I had missed being in his arms.

After a couple of minutes of us just standing there hugging enjoying each others presence, Justin let go a little and cupped my face with his hands. There was an intense stare until his eyes flickered to my lips and he pulled me close to connect our lips. It was an intense peck with a lot of longing and emotion poured into it. Like the last time we kissed, I could feel some uneasiness in my stomach, but it felt good in a strange way. His lips on mine felt so perfect, I never wanted to let go. After a while we did and smiled at each other like idiots. "So good to have you here" Justin told me with a satisfied expression on his face and I offered him a genuine smile in return.