Drowning (Osamu Dazai )

Drowning

It's night , I really don't know how i ended up here ...in the beach.
Im laying in the floor looking at the sky "it has little lights on it even when is dark, the stars still there making company for the sky but it's not the same down here , here nobody cares about me , sometimes im like a ghost in this place."

"I don't want to go to the agency today , actually I'm feeling like going to the Port Mafia , still I won't . If I do that I will have to deal with Chuuya and Akutagawa."

"Akutagawa is not a big deal , the problem is Chuuya he totally hates me" he said out loud .

"And the problem is Chuuya because he still mad at me , I don't blame him , I'm mad at myself too .....I left my partner and I want to see him so badly" Dazai said , he looked at the bottle of wine he had brought and open it

"Maybe Chuuya doesn't hate me , maybe he acts as if the did " Dazai sit up and started to drink form the wine bottle " it feels good..the way that the wine feels hot inside my body and it burns my throat..." he looked at the sky

"I wish I could see Chuuya one more time and say sorry , hug him , and tell him how much i love him...but i can't" once again i found myself drowning in my thoughts and not being capable of doing anything  , Dazai thought while holding a blade on his hand "is not like somebody will care..." he held the blade tightly , press it on his skin and watched the blood drip from his wrist .

He kept cutting himself , he didn't show any signs of pain , he just watched how he press the blade on his skin and bleeds.

" Hehe... I'm starting to feel dizzy "
Dazai closed his eyes . Of course the amount of blood he had bleed that night was enough to make him pass out .

??? P.O.V

I been walking through this Beach for a lot of time and still I haven't found him. This is the only place I can think that he'll be , I will walk for a bit more so maybe I can find this bastard.

"Dammit , I can't find him!" ??? Sighs "why I am even looking for him?"

After walking another hour ,??? Had finally found Dazai , he was shocked by of what he was seeing , dazai's wrists where cover in blood , he was barely breathing.

??? Didn't had to think twice about it he picked up , and carried him to ???'s apartment , he looked at Dazai and tried to stop the bleeding on the way to his place .
End of P.O.V

??? Opened the door of his apartment fast and laid Dazai on his sofa , Dazai opened his eyes and looked at this person "ch-chuuya..?" Dazai said softly , Chuuya looked at him "yes?" He had an aid kit on his hands an sit next to Dazai

Dazai kept looking at Chuuya , chuckles and says "aww Chuuya is worried " .

"Shut up you idiot !!" Chuuya scream "I'm going to clean your wounds so you better shut up!" He cleaned carefully his cuts .

Dazai sighs and looks at him , Chuuya doesn't even bother to look at him he's really nervous of hurting Dazai , he notices that the cuts had stopped bleeding , and starts to bandage his wrists .

Dazai hasn't stop looking at Chuuya , suddenly Chuuya starts crying ,Dazai looks surprised and hugs Chuuya "why..?" Chuuya whispers
"Why , what?" Dazai hugs tightly
"Why are you doing this to yourself?!" Chuuya hugs Dazai back and sobs
"I ....I don't know what to say " Dazai sighs "sorry"
"You're not sorry.... "Chuuya hugs even tighter
"I am " kisses his forehead
Chuuya looks at Dazai "why where you at the beach , drinking ?"

Dazai sighs , pulls Chuuya closer and closes his eyes " because...I.. I wanted to be with you"

"Huh? You did this because of me??" Chuuya looks at him confused

"It's my fault , I'm really sorry Chuuya , Im so sorry " Dazai let out some tears

"It's ok , it's ok , we are together now , yes you hurt me but I'm still here for you" Chuuya cleans Dazai's face

" I love you Chuuya" he looks at Chuuya

"I love you too Dazai" Chuuya looks at him

Dazai kisses Chuuya and both of them close their eyes letting some of the tears on their eyes fall ,after a couple of seconds they pull away and look at each other.

"I'm really sorry..." Dazai said looking at Chuuya

"It's okay..." Lays down on top of Dazai and closes his eyes

Dazai pets his head and both of them fell asleep calmed by each others breathing

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I'm sorry I know it's a short story but I hope you enjoyed it
Byee~