Life has not been easy on me, hell, no-one in my life has been easy on me. Excluding the few that have. But there is a lonely road that i have been walking all my life, nothings changed apart from me getting attaked from ALL directions and the many people who i have trusted and then backstabbed me while i wasnt looking. But after all this. Im still not praying or begging that im anyone else. But....ive changed alot from this shit, and now there is a hollow sound ringing where my heart used to be. My mind. It has....degraded. Im still as smart as i was before. But my look on people is so, so different. I am not able to trust anyone anymore. Even girls. My love life has be all but fun and flowers. Everyday i was stressing so much not to mess it up and say something that would tear our relationship apart. But it only weakened me more.
Right now. This lonely road is covered in pain, heartbreak and much more shit. But. There is nothing that can help me. Ive gone insane. There is nothing left to fight for. So now all i do is say "FUCK THE WORLD" and carry on. I have no feelings. Apart from sadness. Anger. And some happiness but it's quickly fading. I no longer fear death.
Im so lost. Without someone. Although being alone is better than being in bad company. I still feel that being alone is tearing me apart from the inside out. Im beyond repair. Its even with the friends i have fun with now. I come off my PlayStation and go on my phone, but then realise....how lonely i really am. And the i feel the pain rush to heart. Anyone had that before?
People have asked me my whole life 'why do u play video games so muh?' My only answercould be one of 2. Either i play games because i enjoy it when with friends, or, i play them to take away pain, stress and most of all....heartbreak. Lemme ask y'all something.
Am i a Psycho?
How deranged am i? And
Why does my body crave the feeling of a woman next to me?
Its too painful not to have one. But if i do. It means eternal stress where i try and hold on to not let go......
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A Lonely Road
Short StoryJust listen to this. Its kind of an update on my life atm. But beware. Its gone downhill....
