Treat You Better (Shawn Mendes FanFic)

Chapter 28 Treat You Better

Chapter 28 Bella's POV:
I looked at myself in the mirror in a small cute outfit for my "date" tonight with Lucas. I hope it doesn't mean anything, and hopefully I can get some things straight with him.
"Where are you going?" I jumped as Noah walked in the room. He was the last person I wanted to see right now. All I know is if I tell him the truth he's gonna quickly jump on my case.
"I uh- I was uh-" I couldn't get words to come out of my mouth. The way Noah looked he knew something was bothering me.
"Are you going with Shawn?" He asked with a smile.
"Bella are you going with Shawn?" He asked again but instead he was serious.
"No, I'm going with-" before I could finish Noah looked up as Lucas walked through the market. His face dropped. He pointed to the window with anger.
"This has to be a joke right?" He asked. I shook my head.
"What you think he's different because he says a couple of words to you? You can't change someone! What don't you get? He treats you like shit, and Shawn? Shawn treats you way better than he can!" He yelled. As I sighed.
"I'm not arguing with you. This is my decision not yours."
"Does Shawn even know this?" He questioned as I looked down. He put his hands on his head and began to pace back and forth.
"Why did I get stuck with women who can't make right decisions for shit!" He yelled.
"Excuse me? I hope that wasn't directed towards me." I began to get furious.
"Hell yeah it was. I actually thought you were happy, and I like Shawn way better but wait I forgot apparently you don't."
"NOAH! This doesn't mean anything-"
"Obviously it does because you're still going out with him. If you were really sure then you wouldn't need a date for reassurance. That? That is bullshit." He explained.
"That's it. I can't live like this anymore. I just can't." He turned and walked slammed the door in anger behind him. He's right what am I doing. I can't do this date. He means nothing to me now. He has every right to be mad at me. God I give Noah to much stress. I really do.
I took a deep breath walking out and meeting up with Lucas.
"Hi." I said hesitantly.
"I uh got you these." He handed me flowers as I couldn't help but to smile.
"Thank you." He nodded.
"So I really couldn't find us a place to go, so I made us a picnic basket and laid a blanket out on the floor in front." He explained as he walked out the door. For some reason I couldn't tell myself to tell him, so I followed him like a coward.
I sat down next to him as he wouldn't stop looking at me.
"Why are you looking at me like that." I asked.
"Because you're beautiful. And you should know that." He responded. I began to shake my head.
"Why are you doing this? I can't do this I'm-"
"I'm not doing anything. The only thing I did was change the person I was. I didn't like who I became I also didn't like the way I was treating certain people, I don't feel good from that so I want to give my self a chance, and a chance with you." He interrupted me with something so nice. At first I thought he was gonna freak out on me like he usually does but he didn't.
"You deserve the kind of love you would give anyone else. And I'm gonna give it to you because I love you." I paused hearing him say that.
"When I first saw you I fell in love and you smiled because you knew." He told me.
"I have no idea what I'm gonna do." I told myself as he stayed quiet.
"Please. Please give me a chance at least." I looked into his eyes as he had sadness written all through them. He was in pain, and I hate leaving people to feel like that. But he might have a point. He might have changes and I'm starting to believe it. I guess everyone makes mistakes, and those mistakes might define who the person is who they might become. But those ones who are affected can't decide whether or not to let them back in.
"Lucas. Let me talk to you tomorrow. Thank you for everything. But I can't stay this long. I need some time to think." He nodded as I got up and walked back in the farm. I needed to talk to Noah. I looked around everywhere as I couldn't find him.
"NOAH!" I yelled again and nothing. For some reason something doesn't feel right. I began to panic a little inside as I sprinted to our small house in the back. I opened the door and he wasn't in there. Oh my god, I hope he's okay.
"Noah!!!!" I yelled again. At this point I'm just hoping he didn't leave. He can't. Not without me. I walked into his room and opened his drawers as I saw some of his shirts were gone. My heart sank. I opened the sock drawer more were gone. I backed up sitting on his bed.
"He left." I whispered to myself as a tear fell down my eye. Complete emptiness was all made of me right now. I don't think anything else can replace it. I slowly leaned my head on his pillow being able to smell his cologne. I took a deep breath as I began to cry. Nothing holding me back. Everything in this life I live in is completely messed up.
I can't make decisions by myself, and even worst I can't stop second guessing who I am. I guess I don't know where I really belong because everywhere I go I am a complete big mess.