Thats only part of my world. That only one part that haunts me. But the other thing is spirits. I feel this watching over me. I hear their footsteps all around me. Ever since I was young allot of people died in my family, but now I'm more worried for my people that anything. Every time I go on social media I see #R.I.P and #E4 and it scares me because I always think that can be one of my family. Family means the most to me because thats all I got. But like Tupac would always say "Trust nobody". I seen a case we're some stepfather (and where I'm from its dad) stabbed his own stepson. Where I'm from people will kill you for some shoes or kill you just because they feel like it. I never been more scared in my life in this generation. I'm scared in my own house, scared to walk out the house, scared to live. Living is a given but taking a life is a choice. People die everyday. Somebody today will die. People die and family's suffer. Family's seek revenge and kill one another. Take the rifal and shoot or very own species to die slow. And what can they seed of Jesus do ? The world is too much for me to handle. This summer I had a depression and had a break down because I can't save the world. I can't spead joy for I am not joyful. I sit and rock in a corner and listen to Childish Gambino "Because of the internet" and think about all the deaths ive seen on Instagram. How young black men lives were taking cause someone was hating. How gangs plot to get people and fight for their men. How I see angels on the back of jackets and t - shirts. It overwhelms me because its sad because any day that can be me or you. I try my best to live life like its my last but its hard.
