3 am Thoughts

I've just finished eating my meal .. it's not the healthiest .. but it made my stomach look big hh ... gonna brush my teeth *steps in front of the mirror* "would u stop looking at me pls .. yeah u ugly asshole.." goddamn i have to brush my hair .. fuck it a bun will do .. *phone's notification* "who's texting me at 3am .. who's even texting me i used to be a lonely fucker .. i think u got some friends dude" .. the phone's light is too high .. i can't read who sent that msg .. "where are my freakin glasses .. uh here they are" ... Now let's see .. It's ZAYNEB .. that cute writer who always writes imaginations ... oh she sent one ! lemme read it ... it's breaking my heart .. i wish that i can be that guy in the story .. i wonder how her lips taste ? but wake up she's not for me .. i think she loves her bf .. Oh a new msg : Would my bf likes it ? "i like it so muuch .. can u say that it's bout me pls ?" it's time to answer : "yea it's cool ... everyone will like ur stories not only ur bf" *send* "i only care bout his opinion" she said ... I think it's time to reveal to her how much i love her .. ik we just talking for a week but she's my type asf .. but how can she likes u back ? u're just a lonely writer with a ridiculous face who's living in the darkness ... u must be the one who scares the kids when they don't wanna sleep .. Shut up please ik that my life is miserable but .. Um .. U're right i'm PATHETIC .. I think it's time for another story .. I'm gonna call it .. The Writer .. I'm tired asf .. i need some rest i'll begin writing tomorrow maybe or next week .. I won't write it .. *going to bed slowly like i'm a dead body .. laying on it .. taking off my glasses and throw em .. Do i have to take those sleeping pills ? um maybe noo .. my brain is just imagining how she looks in real .. does she has that amazing smile in real life too ?Of course yea .. i can feel her hugging me .. her hands are too cold .. lemme hold em to warm em up .. she said nicely : yea babe please do it" and she stands up on her toes to kiss me .. Her lips are so filthy .. Promise u won't kiss any other girl .. she said ... i promise bae .. YO it's 3am i have to take those pills and sleep

BEEP BEEP BEEP.... BEEP BEEP BEEP .. This fuckin alarm's sound is so annoying .. imma smach it ... it's Half past 5am .. i need to take a shower .. water so cold sliding to my back but i'm feeling like it's her hands .. BRAIN : No time for these love stories hurry up u have a job to do .. *after 30min*Coffee in my hands , cigarette between my lips and i'm looking at the rain through the window .. It's the perfect weather , the sky is dark and cloudy just how i like it .. GOD i adore this environment .. I have to catch the bus ...

BRAIN : DID U JUST FINISHED BY WRITING HER NAME ON THAT FOGGY WINDOW .. UR IN LOVE WITH HER .. C'MON PLAY THAT SONG BY LANA CALLED BORN TO DIE