Hoped For Nothing #Wattys2016

Hoped For Nothing

Hoped For Nothing

A One-Shot Story

Written by enbusible

Curiosity

I always believed that when a girl and boy become best of friends, they'd fall in love with each other. They'd marry and say their vows in front of the altar, they'd kiss, and they'd hug very tightly as if they are holding the most precious thing in the world and form a one big happy family.

To sum it all up, they'd love one another until forever reaches its end point.

But he, my best friend, has always been giving me signs that I have been deceiving myself from the very start. He doesn't know, but I do mind after all.

"Bitter is better because there's no such word as forever left in this world," my seatmate answered when our teacher asked him something that was affiliated with the words 'bitter' and 'love'. And when we say bitter plus forever equivalents to energized students. My classmates started screaming and teasing each other in excitement. Everybody agreed that the existence of forever has not yet proven that results the class as a group of sawi.

I felt someone's hand shaking my right shoulder. I looked for whose hand was it and noticed it was Jasper's, my best friend. "How come that you're here when you sit at the last column? And, what do you need? Can you just tell it later after we finish this subject?" I suggested. "Of course, I stood up and walked here. Do you expect me to crawl up to you?" He frankly said with his face telling 'its-so-obvious-you-are-not-thinking'. I rolled my eyes, "You're talking nonsense as eternally, duh," I emphasized my duh and rolled my eyes again. "No, seriously. This ain't important. I just want to let you know that I love you even if there's no forever," he said directly looking in my eyes and knocked my forehead, a sign that he meant everything he said .

His sweet gestures that make my cheeks blush into red and pink, his sweet and gentle own ways that make me feel special.

His unexpected pantomimes that unexpectedly made my heart fall so hard.

"How about you, Jasper. Do you believe that girl-boy friendships last forever?" our teacher asked. "What do you mean by forever, Ma'am?" he replied while biting his nails. Biting nails has always been his mannerism that I find it cute all the time. "Forever. You are going to marry each other and build a happy family," she explained. "Oh, family. Hmm, I don't think so cos' Fiona and I are platonic. Means, we don't feel any love shits for each other. Right, Fiona?" He turned his gaze to me and all I have to do is nod to show that I absolutely agree. "And I'd rather go for a temporary relationship than a permanent one," he added.

See? He is so dense. He doesn't even know that his words hurt me most. I hate him that I love him. I hate it when he doesn't see the way I feel for him. I hate it when my mind and mind agree when he says we're platonic but my heart and mind oppose. But for the sake of my feelings, I'd rather hide it than letting him know.

The question is why? Why won't I try to confess my feelings to him? Why not take risk the art of falling to gravity? Falling in love, I suppose.

"One day, Jasper. One day you'll eat everything you said. One day, the right girl for you will make you realize and prove you wrong about your principle. What have caused you to say that anyway?" teacher asked. "It's because everybody, well except for me, is hoping for their love to love them back as great as theirs. Sometimes, people forget the impossible things in the world. Sometimes, some people, are very optimistic and eager in love that they often forget that not everything you want is created for you and are created for someone who deserves it better. And, I am more favorable with temporary relationships because I do believe that nothing stays forever. And that's a fact," he said. And when he states something, he means it.