SATZUration

Fear Of Losing You

Tzuyu couldn't sleep again. She moved around in her bed to find a comfortable spot but she couldn't find one. She needed air. She got up quietly and left her room, heading towards the kitchen area. She switched on the TV and put in on a low volume so that no one else would wake up. Tzuyu was tired. The nightmares she was having were haunting her and she couldn't do anything about it. Each night it's the same nightmare. It never changes and it always leaves her restless. It's become true and that's the scary part. When she sees them together, sees her, it breaks her heart every time. She does her best to hide her feelings from the members and no one noticed until recently. Momo found out she's not doing well and found her crying in her bed one day when everyone was out with their schedules.

Tzuyu entrusted Momo with her frustrations and anger and what's been bothering her so much. Sana and her use to be so close but she feels like they're no longer as close. Each time Tzuyu wants to say something to Sana, she thinks twice, she resists. She feels like she's just a burden to Sana who just kept Tzuyu by her side because she was the youngest one. That's what her nightmare was about. That Sana no longer cared about her. That she didn't think of her as a close friend anymore. The truth was that Sana was always with Dahyun these days. There's no doubt that Sana probably doesn't even know how Tzuyu feels because she's never talked to her about it. Only because she's scared that it will cost them their relationship. Maybe it was the hesitation that made her distant from Sana.

Tzuyu liked Sana. But how was she meant to tell her when they no longer talked. She felt jealous each time Sana was with Dahyun and she felt so angry. That use to be them. She missed her hugs and their talks. All this thinking is just bringing back more pain for Tzuyu. Why does she always think about Sana when it's clear that she doesn't. Tzuyu sniffled as the tears threatened to fall thinking about it. She heard a door creak open down the hall and Tzuyu just pretended like she wasn't just crying. Soft footsteps were nearing and she was glad when it was none other than Momo.

"Chewy why are you awake so late?" Momo asked, walking towards Tzuyu.

"Ah I couldn't sleep Momo Unnie." Tzuyu replied.

"It's the nightmares isn't it? That's what's not letting you sleep. Tzuyu-ah, you need to talk to Sana about this eventually you know that right?" Momo said, engulfing Tzuyu in a much needed hug.

"But how am I supposed to? I'm too scared to Unnie." Tzuyu replied, feeling the urge to cry her heart out.

"You can do it Chewy. I know you can. It doesn't have to be soon so just take your time. Now come on, let's go to bed. You can sleep next to me tonight okay? I promise I'll be there with you the entire time so you won't have nightmares. Come on." Momo suggested, pulling Tzuyu up with her.

Tzuyu really didn't have any nightmares that night. When she woke up, Momo was already awake and sitting up on the bed. She didn't leave.

"Oh! Chewy is awake! Let's go eat breakfast Tzuyu-ah! I'm so hungry" Momo said excitedly.