Treat You Better (Shawn Mendes FanFic)

Chapter 32 Treat You Better

Chapter 32 Shawn's POV:
There's a lot that goes into a song I believe. A lot of relation to what the song is about. I think that's why they become so valuable to people. I try my best to understand different kinds of situations, but how can I when I don't understand why I did wrong in mine and Bella's situation. I woke up this morning still hurting. I thought it would go away, I honestly thought it would, but it's still there. I am so angry and upset I just don't get it where I messed up. I thought I made her happy, I thought I was able to help her escape, I thought, I thought, and I thought!! I know now it just wasn't good enough. I wasn't good enough, and having to say that kills me.
"Shawn!" I looked at my manger as he took me out of my thoughts.
"You're on in 10." He pointed out to the stage as I didn't seem as happy as I thought. Don't get me wrong, I love what I do so much and I'm so happy I'm on tour it's just. I just have to give myself time. I can't stop thinking about the way she smiled, and the way her blue eyes lit up when I talked. She just looked happy.
"Are you gonna do it?" I glanced at John as he walked to me hanging me my acoustic guitar.
"At the end. It will be a surprise for them." I responded adjusting my strap.
"Hey, I have to say Shawn, it's actually really good they're gonna love it and I have a feeling it might beat out "Stitches." He nudged on my arm trying to put me in a good mood. All I did was nod.
"Are you sure? You're the only that has heard it." I asked.
"I'm positive dude, just nail it like you always do." He turned and walked away as I put my ear pieces in and relaxed myself. Don't be afraid just let it all out. I walked on as the whole placed roared. I could the stage shake, but I couldn't help but to crack a smile. My eyes searched the whole place as it was completely packed. I couldn't believe it. All of them here for me.
"How we all doing tonight?" I asked as the whole placed answered with screams, and cheering. I nodded smiling.
"That's what I like to hear. You all ready?" I questioned as I began to play the note to "Stitches" as the place yelled even louder than before.

I ended up reaching the end of the night having to close out with one more song. A guy came running out with an electric guitar as I got it settled.
"Alright, I have something to say. You guys will be the first to hear this." I nodded.
"So I uh, I wrote a new song-" before I could finish I was interrupted by the loudness of the crowd.
"Wow." I smiled.
"I wrote a new song and I hope you all love it as much as I do." I spoke into the microphone. I began to think about the memories Bella and I had together. How they made me happy. I think about a quote how you never realize the value of a moment until it becomes a memory. I can understand that now completely. When I think about it, I should have called Bella and at least talked to her, but I didn't. I sat right next to my phone and just looking at it. I looked at my guitar as I felt sadness come across me. I began to play the first tune of it as the feeling was hard to explain.
"I won't lie to you. I know he's just not right for.
And you can tell me if I'm off but I see it on your
face when you say that's he's the one that you want.
And you're spending all you time in this wrong situation
And anytime you want it to stop." I sat up as the whole placed cheered. I walked to the microphone strumming my guitar as hard as I could.
"I know I can treat you better
Than he can
And any girl like you deserves a gentlemen
Tell me why are we wasting time
On all on your wasted crying
When you should be with me instead
I know I can treat you better
Better than he can." I sang into the microphone. I put some of the things I said to Bella in person into the song. Writing it made me realize the vault she as to me. How someone can do that to a person. I continuously told her I can treat her better because she deserves better. And I thought I did. So being able to sing it and realize the way I feel is so special for me. I only wished the fans would know the pain, and the story behind it, but I can't spill that out because I want them to relate to in their own way. My way was with my past relationship.
"Give me a sign
Take my hand, we'll be
Promise I won't let you down
Just know that you don't
Have to do this alone
Promise I'll never let you down

Cause I know I can treat you better
Than he can
And any girl like you deserves a gentleman
Tell me why are we wasting time
And all on your wasted crying
When you should be with me instead
I know I can treat you better
Better than he can

Better than he can
Better than he can." I ended with a couple of strums and the whole placed was amazed based on how loud their volume filled the place. I told them I loved them and none of this would be possible if it wasn't for them, as I walked off the stage. I didn't feel happy about releasing it as I thought. Instead my heart was cracking all over again. I have to stop and think and think about how I just want her to be happy from now, and I hope she'll find someone who gives her time that I thought I did, but I didn't. She gave me something so real and I wish I can hold on to it but I can't. I have to let it go. I just need to find my own but I hope someone will give her all she wants and all she needs. I never meant to hurt her to make a decision like that. But I have to focus on my singing career now, and I need to. I hope she's happy with Lucas and I hope she'll be at peace with herself. I wanted to be the one who holds her hand and makes her laugh all the time, but I wasn't meant for that perfect picture. I have to walk now knowing all I have left of her is that song, and I guess I'm okay with. Life isn't gonna come with perfect decisions but we have to learn to accept them. I have to learn to accept this one, and I'll be okay. I hope I will.