My Life's Pleasures

My Eternal Promise

You'll never understand how much you truly mean to me. 

I didn't know when I first met you this is how it would be.

It seemed like each day there was new thing I loved about you.

Slowly, I realized the only reason I attended life everyday.

Was because I wanted to see you again.

I wish I could have met you back then. 

Before all the painful mistakes I'd ever made. 

Came to haunt me and make me hate.

Everything about me; but with that you understood. 

And helped me in the ways you could. 

It's odd that I've only felt this way once before. 

Now I'm looking forward to the future for what's in store.

There's not a moment with you that I get bored. 

My love, is what I have treated you with.

My heart, is what I want to give you. 

But I am afraid of what you'll do. 

This part is true. 

I'll always be afraid of you. 

Not because you're a bad person.

Not because you're mean.

But because I don't want to be hurt again.

For the problems I have, and the crutches I turn to.

I'm not sure what they would do to you. 

I know I'm okay, I know I'll be safe.

Will you give me your trust in grace?

Or it will be future pain I face? 

It's hard for me to write like this.

Rarely do I write words of bliss. 

But for you; there's nothing I wouldn't do.

Only for the fact that, I love you. 

You must come to terms that I struggle with myself.

That I struggle with my past. 

And that any day could be my last.

However I promise, solely to you dear. 

You have nothing to fear. 

I'm here to stay, I'll never go. 

From you I'll never stray. 

But there's time where I will be away. 

But there's no reason for concern.

There's reasons unknown. 

But I'll always come home. 

To my past, sometimes I must attend. 

To make sure those whom I've promised help. 

Stays in good health. 

It may seem wierd to you at first.

But I promise darling; if I didn't do this. 

It would be much worse. 

I've turned miracles into tragedies, and tragedies to miracles. 

Sometimes my life will run me in circles. 

But I always overcome these hurdles. 

I carry heavy burdens, and will carry more soon to come. 

But if I didn't, this isn't who I would be.

But when or if it comes to push or shove.

I will be here for you ultimately; my love. 

<3