save me // phan

gone // chapter 6

some hotlines <3 ---
Domestic Violence
The National Domestic Violence Hotline
Crisis intervention, information, and referrals.
(800) 799-SAFE or (800) 799-7233
[24 hours; English & Spanish]

Drugs
Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration
Information on prevention and treatment referrals.
(800) 662-HELP or (800) 662-4357

Eating Disorders
National Eating Disorders Association
Information on eating disorders and referrals for treatment.
(800) 931-2237
[Monday – Thursday, 9 a.m. – 9 p.m.; Friday 9 a.m. – 5 p.m.]

Gay/Lesbian Issues
GLBT National Help Center
Peer-counseling, information, and local resources.
(888)-THE-GLNH or (888) 843-4564
[Monday – Friday, 1 p.m. – 9 p.m

Self-Injury
S.A.F.E. Alternatives
Not a crisis line. Information about programs and referrals.
(800)-DONT-CUT or (800) 366-8288

Smoking
California Smokers' Helpline
Free program to help people stop smoking.
(800)-NO-BUTTS or (800) 662-8887
[English & Spanish]

Suicide
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
Calls to the National Suicide Hotline are connected to the nearest crisis center in your area.
(800)-273-TALK or (800) 273-8255
[24 hours]

i think these are all only for California so if you don't live there im sorry ):

------------------ onto da story---------------

phils pov

he fainted in my arms. he's not breathing properly. it's happening again. he's gonna leave me. he cant leave. he was taken from me and put on a gurney. he was going in an ambulance. it was happening so fast but all in slow motion at the same thing. i felt frozen. i was just watching everything happening.

he's gone he's gone he's gone he's gone he's gone he's gone he's gone he's gone he's gone.

i looked to my side to see zoe freaking out. i couldn't move. i tried but i couldn't. then i saw a doctor person come towards me. he was asking me something. i couldn't hear him though. (a/n this is bringing so many bad memories back wowza) i started shaking. then everything was shaking. i blinked and suddenly everything stopped shaking and i could hear him correctly.

all i could think about was getting to dan and making sure that he was safe. that he was breathing. i cant lose anyone else. i cant handle it. i ran as fast as i could to the ambulance and opened the door and sat inside it right before it left. that was probably illegal. but everyone was too busy with dan to notice.

it was driving fast and it was a bumpy road. i didn't like it. dan looked so troubled, even sleeping he didn't look peaceful. he just looked like there was always something wrong with him, not saying there wasn't. talking wasn't a difficult thing to do. it was so simple. i wish i knew why he decided to stop talking.

before i knew it i was shoved aside so they could get dan into an emergency room. i wandered into the waiting room and waited until it was okay to see him.

after about an hour a doctor that was with dan walked out. i immediately ran up to him and asked him where dan was. he pointed too room 2022. i ran inside and he was connected to a bunch of wires and beeping machines. it just looked like he was sleeping.

he was fine one second and then he started violently shaking. i started pressing the red button on the side of his bed until he was taken away from me again. i just sat on the chair in the room and thought about the things that had just happened. it seemed like something straight out of a book or movie.

it had been probably half an hour later when i decided to go back to check on zoe. i drove to the ward to see zoe sitting on the entrance steps. she was flipping through a book and had a smile on her face. "how are you feeling" i said while sitting beside her. "okay. he doesn't deserve this, he's always been such a troubled kid but he always ends up seeing the good in every situation" she said while closing the book.

"yeah i could tell." i said while looking at the view in front. "when he first got entered in here all he wanted to do was leave, but he just seems happier here now." she stated while standing up and putting her hand on my shoulder. "i should go check on the other people." she said while walking away. the book she was looking through caught me eye. i grabbed it and flipped to the first page.

property of: Daniel Howell

I flipped through a few pages and could already tell that he was very talented. he drew everything, people, animals it all seemed so happy and vibrant. until he turned to the page that was drawn on. it was a mask. it was creepy and eery looking. i decided to put it away and go back inside. i wonder why he would draw such a scary thing.

later on during the day we got a call from the hospital. everything was in slow motion again.

all i knew was that i had to get to the hospital.

------this was more of a filler chapter------

this story sucks like it doesn't even deserve to be on wattpad ugh :/