Deeks looks up from him food across the small table at me. His blue eyes shine in the dim light of the restaurant and I can see he is struggling with something. I slowly take a sip of my wine. Deeks clears his throat and I glance back into his stunning baby blues.
"I would rather be at my place right now," he says then pauses glancing down. "With you."
"What?!" I am totally taken of guard by his confession. He wants to be at his house with... ME? "Deeks.... I....." I'm at a loss for words.
"Kensi ever since I first met you I wanted nothing more than to be able to make you laugh, hold you in my arms, kiss you, and call you mine. And I have gotten a chance to do all of that even if most of it was undercover. I love the sound of your laugh, your smile, and your beautiful mismatched eyes that always seem to shine. The first time we kissed was amazing and after that I wanted to know how you would react in real life without a cover to protect. I never had the chance until we were arguing about communication. I didn't know a better way to communicate what I could never find the words to say so I kissed you. It played out so differently in my head, because the only reaction I expected was for you to slap me but you didn't and that made me wonder if maybe you felt the same way. When you guys fond us at the warehouse and you ran straight to me at first I thought maybe I was dead but when I felt you touch me I knew that you were there to save me. After everything I thought about quiting but I realized that I might never see you again and I couldn't." He stops and looks at me. In his clear blue eyes I see fear but I also see the love that for so long he has kept hidden.
"Oh Deeks...." I whisper as I try not to let the tears show in my eyes or my voice. I take a deep breath and start again. "Deeks..... Marty, I have never felt this way ever not even with Jack. That first time we kissed made my whole world spin and I knew that you became my partner for a reason. I still can't believe that you didn't seem to realize that I was dropping you hints like the magazine quiz. Then I even told you that I never thought I'd like the whole married couple, kids running around kind thing. That its nice to have someone to say goodnight to at the end of the day. When you went do far as to offer having kids with me my heart nearly stopped. The idea of your children... Our children running around and giggling made me want to cry. When you kissed me on that hill i couldn't think, it was like my brain had shut off. Then I remembered Michelle so I took off. When I fond out that you and Sam had been kidnapped I died inside thinking only the worst but hoping that I wouldn't lose you. Meeting you is the best thing that has ever happened to me." I lift my mismatched brown eyes up to meet his shimmering blue eyes. Add we gaze at each other he reaches across the table and takes my hand in his. I stand with him and smile, he pays for our half eaten dinner.
As Deeks drives us back to his place the car is silent and it gives me the time I need to think. I have always tried to keep my emotions hidden, locked up so I couldn't get hurt again. Deeks has away of finding and unlocking my emotions in a way I never thought possible. In all the time we have been partners I never thought we would fall in love. I hear echos from our past cases. "Are you in love with your partner?", "I don't wanna step in the middle of something....between you and your partner.", "Are you two like together together?", "What's the story with you two?" 'He's my partner.' "That's all?" 'Yes.' "Is that enough?", "So your boss know about you two?", "I always wanted to meet the woman who changed Deeks' mind." It has been so clear to everyone yet neither of us saw it. And the nicknames ha gave me; Fern, wifey, light of my life, Sugarbear, Kensalina, princess, sunshine, wikipedia, Kiki, wonder woman, babygirl, darling, my sweet, sweety, honey, and hon bun.
"Kensi!" Deeks' voice brings me back to the car now parked outside his place. We get out and head to his front door.
"Deeks... Wait!" I stop and wait for him to turn around. In a small voice I ask, ""What do I smell like? You never told me."
"I did but you had already walked way." He reaches out to take my hand. "You smell like sunshine and gunpowder... two of my favorite things!" He steps closer and raises his hand to brush my hair back. Then he tugs on my hand as we head into the house. I barely get into the appartment when Deeks spins on me, pushing into the wall, and kisses me. I have never been kissed like that, there was so much passion in his kiss and my body respounded before my mind realized what was happening. My fingers knot in his hair as my lips move in snyc with his. He pulls back, breathless his beautiful eyes shimmer with love and passion. Deeks stars down at me, blue eyes priecing brown eyes, as he runs his fingers acroos my cheek.
"Kensi you are so beautiful," he whispers as he leans in once more and plants a soft feather-like kiss on my lips.
A/N
Comment if you think I should continue. Thanks of reading.
Rhon
