May 4, 2014
"Ian..." my name barely came out of my pale mother, Anna. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer four months ago, the doctor told me that she will only be able to live for another 2 to 3 weeks and right now those weeks are up.
I have been crying ever since I got the phone call from school that it was time. If you're saying that I'm a mommas' boy well you can go fuck yourself because the only woman in the world I love right now is in a hospital bed looking pale but beautiful as always.
"Ian, I know this is hard on you sweetie but I want you to know that I will always here with you.." she said her voice barely above a whisper. "I want you to find that special girl, and tell her about me." A small smile appearing on her face, as her crystal blue eyes that I never inherited show sad, but happy emotions.
"I want to look down on my grand kids one day" she said sternly but playfully; my mom would always lighten up the mood, it does not matter what situation she is in she would always like to see someone else smile; and that is what I'm going to miss most about her.
I opened my mouth to say something but no words came out.
I listen as the monitor sounds began to slow down.
I looked into my mothers' eyes for the last time as she spoke her heartfelt words, "Ian, I love you, forever and always OK, promise me you will never, ever forget me." Her fragile hand connected with mines, as I spoke, "I promise, I love you mom forever and always."
The beeping sounds of my mothers' heart beat was going by seconds, she flashed me one last beautiful smile that will be remembered in my heart and mind for the rest of my life.
She squeezed my hand one last time as a single tear fell from her eyes and down her cheek. Her eye lids fell down slowly as the beeping sound of her heart beat was no longer.
I stood up from my seat beside the bed and leaned in to give my beautiful angle one last kiss on her forehead while a stream of warm tears fell down my face. As I took one last glance at my mom, the doctor gave me a sympathy look and I nodded my head and left the room.
I repeated in my mind what my mothers' last words were; 'Ian I love you, forever and always OK, promise me you will never, ever forget me.' I would never forget my mother and no other woman would replace her spot in my heart.
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- Tam
