Acknowledge Me

Nisha

***Nisha in the media***

"Heav'n has no rage like love to hatred turn'd/ Nor Hell a fury, like a woman scorn'd" -William Congreve

It wasn't even supposed to go down like that. My immediate boss, Cheyenne, needed some paperwork from me. I went to my house with the sole purpose of getting the paperwork and leaving.
I know everybody expects me to just run back to Miko because that's my usual routine but this time I'm really over it with his selfish ass.
Niggas expect females to be absolutely everything to them and for them while they dish out piss poor, mediocre bullshit and I'm so tired of that.
I met Miko or "Shine" as the streets call him when I was 12 years old. Even way back when he had me sprung beyond belief and to this day I can't figure out what it is about him that has me being such a dumb bitch behind him.
I'm not one of those women who can blame being stupid in love over some deep-rooted daddy issues or no shit like that. In fact, my mother and father are married and have been since before I was born. My Daddy treats my Mom like a queen and she treats him like a king.
So it wasn't a lack of love, I just happened to fall head over heels in love with a hood nigga and I'm paying for that shit everyday.
I wish that I could have fell in love with a square but it's true when they say good girls love bad boys. From day one I was hooked on his ruggedness and to this day the same qualities about him that make me want to go upside his head are the very same qualities that keep me around.
Even still, I can't understand why at this point Miko can't just keep his dick in his pants. I can see if I was some bum bitch that had nothing going for herself but that's nowhere near the case.
From the start I have been ambitious. I graduated high school with a 4.0 as valedictorian and a week later graduated from Atlanta Tech as a LPN the top of my class. Not to mention continuously climbing the academic scales as I work towards eventually gaining the funds to become a doctor. I could very well get the money from Miko to cover my tuition but I wanted to earn this one on my own.
I got pregnant my senior year in high school and consequently turned down my full ride scholarship to go to Johns Hopkins. Miko begged me not to take his baby away from him and like a dummy I let that opportunity pass me by.
Had I known what I know now I would've been on the first thing smoking to Baltimore but I was in love. Hell, I'm still in love but that's neither here nor there. I ended up miscarrying what would've been our son due to stress.
Losing our son caused me to fall into a deep depression but I eventually accepted that God had other plans for my baby boy and I continued my life.
After passing up such a huge opportunity I felt like I had to earn my next chance so I started working and saving, applying for a number of grants and scholarships and now I'm just a few thousand short of being able to pay for my medical tuition in full. I was planning on finding a medical school close to home but now I'm thinking that a move to Baltimore might not be such a bad thing.
So you see I'm not the typical street niggas girlfriend. I'm not some kept woman, I have goals and I'm achieving them.
I'm a mother and despite school and work I still take care of my daughter's needs to the fullest. Not to mention, keeping a clean house with at least dinner on the table every night.
It doesn't hurt that I'm 5'6 and 130 pounds of Miko's favorite thickness. My ass is on colossal with titties to match and an itty bitty waist that wouldn't even hint at me carrying a 10-pound baby girl just a couple years ago. I have long silky hair that touches my tailbone and caramel-kissed skin compliments to my Latina mama. Not to be arrogant but I'm beautiful.
I may have a bit of a temper but that black and Latina blood flowing through my veins just won't let me be great so it's not even my fault.
Still, despite my temperament issues on all other levels I'm up to par which is why I can't understand why Miko just won't do right.
I shoulda left Miko a long time ago but yall just don't understand, if he could keep his dick in his pants he'd be perfect. He's the best father to our daughter, Milan. Miko is a provider through and through and he absolutely spoils the both of us to no end.
I'll even give him credit for not being out there as much as he used to be because there was once a time that I was fighting bitches nearly every season. When you're with a man as long as I've been with Miko you begin to learn their patterns so I know he hasn't fucked anyone but me in a long time but if he thinks that I don't know about the occasional head from hoes he got the game fucked up.
It's not like these broads ain't out here bragging to the whole world about toppin' off a nigga with a whole family at home.
I used to justify his bullshit by telling myself that since he is a good man in all areas other than him cheating that I didn't have to leave him but I've gotten to the point where I can no longer justify his behavior.
Regardless of how much I know that Miko loves me, he loves our daughter and he loves our family I can't turn a blind eye to how he acts out in the streets anymore. It does a number on my pride and my self-esteem every time some new bitch wants to flaunt the fact she's fuckin and suckin my man especially when I've given all I absolutely have to give and still it's just not enough. I know for a fact that many men would love to have a woman like me and they would do completely right and still I stand stupid stuck on Miko.
Not anymore though. Miko isn't just some little hot boy out in the streets anymore. He's damn near pushing 30, has a family and I want to get married someday soon. I want to get married, I want to have more babies and I just want to be happy in a fully committed relationship where my efforts are reciprocated in the one that I choose to be my partner. I honestly don't know if Miko ever get to the point where it's just all about me and our family and I can't wait any longer to see if he'll ever get there.
When Toya offered me her condo I'm pretty sure she wasn't expecting me to take her up on her offer but I'm tired. At this point I just feel like I really don't have anything else to lose and damn sure not a thing to gain by continuing to go into the same cycle with Miko over and over and over again. I don't want to do it anymore. I don't want to be cheated on, I don't want to be lied to and even if him just getting head every now and then isn't as bad as he used to be I still don't deserve that. I know I don't deserve it and it's time for me to be as smart as I am. I have a child now and I can't keep going out and fighting broads and fighting Miko because he can't be faithful. It's not just me anymore that I have to worry about and I'll be damned if I go to jail behind some bullshit with him.
At least that was my thought process before I walked in my house and Miko has the nerve to have some dusty bitch in here.
Yeah I know I moved out and we're broken up but this shit still don't fly. I don't care if I moved clear across the country, never is it going to be ok for any broad to be in my home.
"Wait Nisha baby, I can explain." Miko stutters as he pushes the bitches head out his lap and stumbles in his ill-attempt to get his pants up quickly.
All I see is red as I pull my gun so fast I didn't even see me do it.
The dumb bitch starts screaming her head off while Miko tries to calm me down, "Nisha put the gun down, you don't wan..."
I don't even let him get the complete thought out before I start busting my gun. With tears blinding me, I move between Miko and his bitch trying to light both of these motherfuckers up.
In this moment rational thought drains me and complete insanity takes over.
A scream followed by a thud let's me know I got somebody but with all the tears clouding my vision I can't decipher who.
The only thing that stops me is the gun clicking letting me know I'm out of bullets. The clicking noise brings me out of my haze and I can clearly access the damage I've done. Although, neither of them are dead the bitch took a shot to her arm while Miko took one to the leg, hip and arm.
"Fuck Nisha, don't just stand there call an ambulance." Miko cries out in pain.
I ignore Miko and walk over to his bitch, "I hope that dick was worth it you dumb bitch. If you know what's good for you, from this day forward you'll act like you never encountered me or that dog ass nigga. God saved you today but if I see your ass again I can promise you shit won't pan out in your favor." I threaten and this scary bitch passes out.
"Nigga where'd you find this scary ass bitch?" I laugh at Miko as he pants from the pain I inflicted on him.
"NISHA STOP FUCKING PLAYING AND GET ME SOME HELP BEFORE I BLEED OUT!" Miko yells at me.
"Don't fucking yell at me you dirty dick bitch! If it hadn't been for you having community dick you wouldn't be laid out shot the fuck up." I spit at Miko while grabbing his phone off the coffee table.
"You better come get your nigga and his bitch before they bleed to death." I say to Knowledge before grabbing what I came for and leaving.
If our relationship wasn't over before, it's a dead muthafuckin' issue now. The days of Miko disrespecting me are done.