Pain killer

The pain

Jack was around 20 years old at the time. He had been on YouTube for some time now. So many subscribers...but Jack felt so alone. He felt hopeless and drained. It was hard to stay happy when everything was just...painful. He always wore hoodies. Oversized hoodies. He knew it would help hid himself. He was very skinny. You could see his ribs whenever he didn't have a big sweater or hoodie on. Which was not often. His wrists were covered in scars and cuts. Everywhere. He thought he was the worst person in the world, dispite all the love. He felt...guilty that these people were taking the time to make him all of this stuff. It was really cool stuff but it was unnecessary. Jack felt so numb and cold. Left out and just flat out lonely. The only thing that he felt was a..warm and fuzzy feeling. Much like kittens and puppies attacking you. He felt butterflies flutter in his stomach and his cheeks heat up. This only happened when he was around a certain red haired YouTuber named Mark. He always felt happy being near Mark.