Tears that fall due to the pain of depression, loss, cutting, and failure.... All at the same time....
Its like a whirlwind of pain that comes from all directions and pounds you endlessly without a single pause in its wretched blows.... They hit hard and merciless, they make you lose hope.... And happiness....
That energy that flows through you is sucked away, its gone, forever more in an eternal abyss I call depression....
It drains you...
Kills you from the inside...
It doesn't want to set you free...
You are a prisoner of it, never seeing the daylight, the people you love, never getting to know what having true joy feels like again....
To lose someone extremely close to you, or to love someone and never see them again.... It hurts, it has a certain pain to it thats deep and burning a hole in your heart....
Its like being burned from the inside, losing everything you ever loved...ever wanted...ever desired...ever felt...ever seen...ever heard...
You lose it all, and the darkness is more than the light....its overwhelming....
When you cry and you cant stop it...
When you cant be happy...
When you feel alone...
Its all because of depression...
I hate it!
I want it gone! Out!
But its not that easy.....never is, nor will it ever be.....
-SAM
