That's Eugenia Carters on the side or on top
I am alone
I've been alone practically my whole life. Sometimes I wonder if there's a better place to be, where people welcome you with open arms, smiles on their faces and love in their eyes. If I knew of a place so wonderful I would have left long ago, to pursue that life. I would get rid of this feeling and have a small family of my own.
I am depressed
Society tells people that depression is not a real illness, they will tell you to go for a walk, do yoga or listen to meditation. But depression isn't curable if you don't want to be cured because depression isn't fixable by doing exercise or taking medication. Feeling like shit has become normal, to the point where I built a wall so high you will never see me fall. I have two separate lives one for the public and one for myself late at night. I have been depressed for so long it became my identity. Depression isn't a choice it's an illness.
And this is my story
I do the same things every day, wake up, go to school, come home and then go to sleep. It's become my daily routine and I love my routine. It's uninvolved, I don't have to socialize at all, it's my go-to plan.
I only enjoy the company of my two best friends which is Jo and Toby. We've known each other since we were 4, I was an angry child back then, breaking kid's sandcastles and throwing sand on them. They were my saving grace. The twins are very popular now, with their good looks and good personalities; they're known as the dynamic duo at our school.
But for me on the other hand, I'm the mysterious one out of the group well according to the school daily gossip. Girls think they can befriend me to become closer to the twins and the guys think they can "save" me. It's just pathetic bullshit that high schoolers think they can achieve.
To conclude, my school is filled with annoying fake people, I don't like socializing and I'm messed up in the head, However, my story isn't some story about falling in love and getting to find myself, It's about me pursuing the road of happiness.
Coming soon
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Directions to Happiness
Teen Fiction"Do you ever imagine how life would be if we didn't meet" Gio asked me "I think I would always stay depressed" I reply, drawing patterns on his naked torso. "Well I think you would've done just fine without me" When Gio asked me that question, I di...
