It's been a while...
i sigh and wave to you
but frown and drop my arm
when i see you turn
away from me and to
your friends.
I scream at you, but to no avail.
you never hear me. Maybe i'm
Mute; perhaps you're deaf. But maybe
you stuffed cotton in your ears
to block me out. I trusted you, and
you held my heart in your hands,
ripping it to shreds and watching it fall,
oblivious to the emptiness that flooded out.
Tears fall on my wrist,
turning to blood as they race
down my arm. Only time
can heal the slices, only pigment can
color the white.
You talk to me, rarely. I'm an
inconvenience to you. Why
did you slam the door in my face?
The room i lay in has become a coffin,
and my sobs pool around my feet,
gathering into a tsunami of pain and drown
me until i can't breathe. I struggle to keep
my head above the water, but a wave
crashes over me, holding me down.
Slowly but surely, I stop struggling
and let the pain drain out as I sink
to the bottom. At first, it hurts,
but in the end, peace washes over me,
because my breath stops and my heart
gives out.
And finally, I'm free of the
heartbreak I used to feel.
I welcome death with a grateful smile
and open arms. I'm free...
