Hello again so it's been what like nearly a week since I have posted a chapter and I was ill for three days and the other days I just had no inspiration at all and also I have a feeling I might be becoming depressed again. For the past week or two I have been feeling down and will just sit on my bed and stare at my wall for hours but I'm also starting to get suicidal thoughts again and the craving to hurt myself for no reason.
I haven't really told anyone because I just don't know how I would tell them and I think my mum would have a go at me since I was supposed to go councilling to try and stop being depressed and stuff but I didn't want to because it was awkward and I'd usually have a panic attack nearly every time I had to go and I think personally it was making things worser since I still had certain secrets that I would not willingly give out to everyone. And I've also been crying at night for no reason too. I also keep having moments where I will just space out for hours and not notice anything.
So yeah, I'm sorry it's taking forever; I guess I have writers block right now. I'm also supposed to be going on holiday in one week and four days and I hope there's internet there but I doubt it :( I also have recently gotten into a Kpop group called BTS and a member called Suga dropped his mixtape this week and there was a song about how he had depression, social anxiety, how he hid in the bathroom after a concert once, and tons of other stuff which made me cry because I know it must be worser for him since he's famous and a lot of people look up to him (like me).
My mum said that she thinks my Joker poster is watching her too 😂 I'm tempted to take it with me on holiday
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Insane & Crazy
Fiksi PenggemarThis is basically a love story between my Oc and Joker where they meet at Arkham Asylum and stuff happens, you will need to read to find out, also the first chapter is just gonna be about my Oc so skip that if you don't really care about the Oc info...
