Matt ,Kylo Ren and Ben Solo Smut And Fluff Imagines

[Ben Solo]please stay(fluff)

Warning: suicidal thoughts and self harm.

You've been with Ben Solo until he turned dark.
Now he's not the same. He never tells you that he loves you anymore or holds you and kisses you. He doesn't know the damage you are in or how you'd cut yourself. Until one day you just wanted to give up.
(A/n: hey I've been wanting to fix this up since God knows when. And it did look like a scene from American horror story so that I completely cbanged, so hope you like the this version better)
Your P.O.V

I dont know how many times I've cut myself. The scars on my arms are too many to count. I loved Ben and I still do but he's not the Ben that I knew and now I have Kylo.
He never says I love you like he always does or cuddles and kisses me.
We did got into a fight this morning about us and he said we are not important . How can he say those words to me? I cried laying on the bed that we share...but Not for long.
I grabbed the bottle of pills and and a cup of water. I popped all the pills in my mouth one by one until the bottle is now empty. "I'm so sorry" I cried and felt my eye lids getting heavy and darkness took over. Besides he won't care if I'm gone.

Ben's P.O.V

I should have never said those words to (y/n). I still love her and always. Damnit I have to make this right or I'll lose her for good. But something felt not right.I sensed something wrong when I walked into our shared room. I looked at her laying on the bed with an empty bottle of pills in her hand.
"NO" I cried. I carried her to the bathroom putting her in the shower with me wrapping my arm around her waist  and the other moving the  (c/h) strands out of her face. I didn't care if I got wet. I also noticed the scars on her arms. Some were old and new.This was all my fault. I drove her to do this. I'm the monster.
"(Y/N) I'M SORRY PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME BABY" I screamed and cried turning on the shower head getting us wet as I kissed the top of her head. "(Y/N) PLEASE IM SORRY, I LOVE YOU!!!" I cried. I stuck two of my fingers in her mouth to throw up the pills. I hear her gagging as she spit out the pills. I hear her crying holding her close to me. She struggled to get out of my grasp but I couldn't let her I needed her and still do.
"YOU SHOULD HAVE LET ME DIE YOU FUCKING MONSTER" She cried punching my chest.
"No, I shouldn't. Please don't end your life" I said to her.
"But I'm not important remember. You don't even love me anymore and I want Ben not Kylo fucking Ren. I hate you Ben Solo." She began to cry again.she pushes me off her as She got out of the shower leaving me soaking wet. But I can't let her go. I can't live without her. I got out and came into our room to see her sitting on the edge of the bed . Her eyes didn't leave the ground. I took off all my clothes except for my boxers and sat next to her. I took and examined her arms to see her scars. I let one tear drop on her arm as I trailed my lips on both of her damaged skin kissing her delicate skin that she ruined.
"Please forgive me. I didn't mean to hurt you like this, if I ever knew you were capable of doing this to yourself I could have done something about it" she looked at me with those beautiful (e/c) eyes. "Well you did and how can you help me, you're so stuck on finishing vaders stupidity you cant even fix me. Face it Ben, I'm nothing to you-" I cut her off doing something I hadn't done for 5 weeks. I smashed my lips to hers. She was taken back at first but she kisses me back wrapping her arms around my neck. She opened her mouth for my tongue to taste her . I tasted vomit in her mouth but wasn't caring, I have to have her, care for her, love her, help her and protect her from harm. I got on top of her kissing her jaw line and neck when she let out a sigh. I slipped my hand under her tank top pulling it off her as she stopped me to go further to removing her bra. "Ben, please not right now. I just want to rest right now beside you" I nodded to her agreement. She did asked me if I could remove her shorts which I simply did removing the wet fabric throwing it with my wet clothes. I lay down next to her having her head on my chest and wrapping my arms around her for comfort. I kissed the top of her head and said those three words to her that I used to tell her. "I love you (y/n), I'm sorry I haven't said those words to you for a long time. Please don't ever do this to yourself again. Promise me" I said. She looked up at me

"I promise. I love you too" I peck her on the lips then we drifted to sleep.
And that was the day I will protect...snoke Can kiss my dark sider  ass

A/N:OMFG I almost cried making that imagine. So here is the imagine fluff of Ben Solo.
I really would like requests of Matt the radar technician if you got any I'm still thinking of one....catch you on the flip side and still making a chapter for the librarian and the radar technician.