It has to end this way...(hiatus)

Chapter 10-You changed me...

yah I know Im kinda look stupid at the parking lot before 

singing Bitter Songs ...But I just cant hide it and I just cant stop

I love her so much T^T

hayss...by the way ilang araw na po yung nakalipas mula nung

I saw Amaryllis and Michael kissing...

and akala niyo nagbago agad ako katulad nung sinabi ni ANgel?

well hindi po noh!

ang hirap kaya magbago...

tsaka umaasa pa rin ako na kaya  niya akong mahalin ng hindi ako nagbabago

pero parang wa epek eh tulad nito

{FLASHBACK}

naglalakad ako sa canteen ng maispotan ko si Amaryllis na mag-isa

lumapit ako sa kanya

"Amaryllis can we talk?"

she looks at me hten roll her eyes

well sanay na ako kaya okay lang

tska labs ko naman siya eh XD

"what do you want?"

"just want to talk anout --"

she cuts me off  - 3-

di pa nga ako tapos eh -_-

"US? well just to make things clear okay Kenneth?there's nothing US anymore...sa pagkakaalala ko kasi WALA ng TAYO tsaka duh just like what I've told you before I dont love you and never will"

{End of flashback}

oh di ba?ansakit nun ...

sabihan ka na hindi ka niya mahal at hinding hindi niya ako kayang mahalin?

hindi man lang niya naisip kung anong mararamdaman ko...

pero I won't lose hope

I love her and I will do everything just for her

hayss naalala ko nanaman yung line na yan...

yan din yung sinabi ko nung isang araw and this happens  

{FLASHBACK}

at the canteen...

well nakita ko lang naman na mag-isa ulit si Amaryllis and I grab again the oppurtunity

na wala si Michael...

mahirap kasi pumorma pag andyan siya

paglapit ko palang nagsalita agad sya

"What again?"

she says while not looking at me...

"Amaryllis why can't you just reconsider--"

ok she loves cutting me off

"blah blah again and again?paulit-ulit ka na ah?kala ko ba matalino ka ha?NERD ka di ba? bat hindi mo maintindihan yung sinasabi ko na hindi kita mahal!"

"Amaryllis I love you and I will do everything just to get you again.."

"well Booby Nerd I dont so go away"

"but Amaryllis..."

"EVERYONE ATTENTION PLEASE!!!"

everybody looks at our direction

"HERE IS KENNETH HAINES ASKING NO SCRATCH THAT OUT BEGGING FOR ME TO COME BACK AT HIS ARM...ISN'T THAT AWFUL?HUH?"

lahat na sila ay nagbubulungan

perhaps pinagtatawanan na nila ako

"I KEPT ON PUSHING HIM AWAY YET HE STILL COMES BACK AT ME AND BEG HAHA WHO IS HE BY THE WAY?"

someone shouts that he's just a nerd feeling close to you Royal Friends

and then everyone agrees ...

at lahat na sila ay nilalait ako

ang masaklap lang ay makita ang taong mahal mo na nakikipagtawanan pa sa kanila

and she's wearing her famous evil grin

{END OF FLASHBACK}

well kahit ganun ewan ko ba...

mahal ko pa rin siya...

ewan ko ba ang tanga na talaga ng puso at isipan ko

andami na nga niyang ginawa para kamuhian ko siya pero wala parin eh

pero may isa rin siyang sinabi sakin kanina na nakapagpatanggal ng willpower ko...

{FLASHBACK}

I was seating at the garden

itong garden na to ay tago...

dati naming hidingplace ni Amaryllis tong garden na to

and now it's only MY hiding place dahil wala na siya

I miss her so much

"Kenneth?"

"Amaryllis?"

what is she doing here?

tatanggapin na ba niya yung alok ko?

"tatanggapin mo na ba yung offer ko?"

"no,Im here para sabihin sayo na kahit anong gawin mo ay hinding hindi na kita mamahalin ksai si Michael na ang mahal ko,please leave us alone,thanks"

then she walks away

'kahit anong gawin mo ay hinding hindi na kita mamahalin kasi si Michael '

{END OF FLASHBACK}

wow just wow

ganun niya kamahal si Michael?

wala na ba talaga akong pag-asa?

nung narinig ko yun parang gunuho yung mundo ko...

I feel NUMB

parang nawala lahat sa akin...

no, I still have my last card

yun yung sinabi sa akin ni Angel

I have to change...I have to be better than Michael

hindi na muna ako papasok

I need to change myself

I have to be like him like Michael or way better than him

well Amaryllis when you'll see me

I assure you that I will say to you that well babe YOU CHANGED ME...

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2ND update

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