I don't know what people think of me or want me for but it hurts to not know.
Oh right my name? It's Emma... Uh I'm 12 years old as of now. I'm depressed and suicidal... You'll find out why soon.
Age: nine
I'm only a kid... Right? I don't know what TRUE pain is right? Heh that's what they think.. They think they know it all. Listen up "kiddo" I'm a suicidal, depressed, sociopath and I want to murder people. Sometimes for reasons... Sometimes just because. Sometimes. Because. I. Don't. Give. Two. Shits. About. Life... I honestly could say I wish I were dead as of right now. And honestly I would have but I hate pain.. It's awful. And scary. So I wait. And wait. And wait. Until one day there will be a building or a drink that I can finally end my life on. Ha... Ha. And I'm just a kid right?! DONT KNOW ANYTHING RIGHT?! I'm going to tell you my story. Right now. When I was about 5 or 6 I was taken into my room and told my mother was dead. And she was. And I don't remember hardly anything about her. About two years later my father left... I'll be back he said... Soon he said... Newsflash 4 years isn't soon buddy. Just saying. I was bullied for a while. I don't even know if they were trying to bully me to be honest. Or if I were just taking jokes too seriously. I. Don't. Know. So as I said before it hurts to not know. And sometimes you have to wait. And be calm. To find the right answers.., maybe one day I'll see my parents again. But for now I live with grandpa George and gramma Linda, it's where I've lived basically my whole life because my mom was poor. So I loved my grandparents... I have a brother too or whatever... We're twins and all. Anyways I have ANGER issues and sometimes I can't control it.... So I throw chairs. And tear books. And scream. And cry. And nobody understands me. Nobody but the people I let into my brain. And they look through the files and though I fight them I can't deny they're the closest people I have. That are human.
Next chapter coming up soon I'll be trying to do a lot more soon but I'm trying to live the end of my summer up to the fullest
