Mother Nature

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I turned off my computer. I could not believe it! I was pregnant! The only good thing was that I would not have period for nine months, but who's the father? This is exactly what I was looking on my computer! But could not find them. I won't lie, I had sex with more than five men this month! I was not o porn star! I was just a girl that was bored and didn't have anything else to do! So I chose sex as my hobby! I didn't like relationships, so I just had sex for fun with every man I liked! Never I gave my right number! That's why I can't communicate with anyone of them! I always threw away their numbers! And we were always drunk so I don't know if they were using condoms! I was wrong! Sex isn't a safe game! Sex is a dirty game! You have to follow the rules or else someone gets pregnant! I was so irresponsible, but now - with this baby - I will be responsible! I hope so..
Suddenly someone knocked the door, so I run fast to open them! It was my best friend Lana.
-Hey Rydel, what's up?..she waved.
-I..I... I couldn't speak so I just showed her the pregnancy test .
-What the fuck?...she screamed.
-I know..I said with my head down.
-Who is the father?
-I don't know!...still with the head down.
-What do you mean you don't know?!..she said a bit louder.
-I don't know who is the father! I don't remember anyone I had sex with! We were drunk! Every time!..I said screaming and started crying.
-You have to find out!
-I can't! I can only find out the name but I will never find out when he leaves because I haven't kept any phone number of those men!
-Oh my god, you are really stupid!
-Thank you..I said smiling ironically
A week later my license was over so I had to go back to work! I didn't knew if makeup was ok for the baby but I couldn't go anywhere without makeup so I just left home with a ton of makeup in my face, as I usually do. After a few minutes I was just right there, in my lovely office! My boss was at the caffe and talking with customers I guess. He doesn't really talk to the customers but I don't know.
-Rydel!..he shouted
I looked at them.
- Come here!..he shouted again
So I stood up and walked to their side. Suddenly I felt dizzy and fell down. I heard voices, shouting my name! I couldn't breathe easily! I thought I was dying...
A few hours later I waked up in a small white room. In a small white bed. I saw a man looking at me, also dressed in white. He was a doctor, I suppose. When he saw me he smiled.
- Are you better?
- I think so!
- You fainted and they brought you here! But there's nothing to worry about, you are just pregnant.
- I know! I want to eliminate the child.
- What? Why? You should be happy! In nine months you will give birth to one child and..
- Look, it's my decision..I interrupted him
- I know but you have to keep it! It's a gift from God..
- You know, this means that my life is over! I will not have time for myself! I haven't lived my life yet!
- Oh dear! How old are you?
- I am really young! I am 20 years old! I just have finished school!
- You are alright! You can do this! If there is any problem just call me...he told me and gave me his card
- Thank you so much.
- You are welcome! Anything! Anything for a young mother like you! It's unfair to throw away this special gift.
- You really like children huh? You should adopt them then! You know I work I in an adoption center so I could easily...
- Don't be silly! They need their mummy!
- I was just kidding...
- Don't even think about to give it for adoption! No one will take it from you. It's yours!
- But if I don't want it?
- You are very lucky! My wife can't give birth to children! Her body can't keep a child! You are lucky, don't just throw away your change to have your own child!...he said and burst to tears
- I can give you the address of the adoption center if you want.
- Rydel Lynch!..a woman shouted from outside
- Here!..I said
- You can go! You are alright now
A few days later I came up with an idea! If I wanted to raise the child properly, I should look for a step father. A man near my age who is looking for a family. The only way was to find someone in the internet. So I found a website,V, and signed up. It was an website that I could meet someone through a video call. You just see who is online and you click on them so you can call him. I started looking for guys near my age when someone called me. SexyJack was his username. I hoped he wasn't looking just for sex. A man without shirt appeared in my screen. He had a nice body. Blue eyes and brown hair.
- Hey there!...he said with a sneaky look
- Hello.. I said shyly
- Do you wear a string?
- Huh?
- Come on! Show me!
- What the fuck, dude?
- I want to see your bra too. I hope you have big boobies and nice butt..he said and he got his pants off
- You know what? I am pregnant!
- What?
Then he hanged up and blocked me. This man was just looking for sex. What an asshole! Wait a minute! I was a bitch too. I had sex with men just for fun and that was it! I started crying for my abjection. All of my mascara was now black tears. I smeared my lipstick to all over my face. I felt bad! I felt really bad! I was nothing! Nothing at all! I will be a bad standard for my child! I felt pain! I felt pain to my heart and..my belly! I started panicking! I grabbed my phone to call the doctor but I couldn't find his card! Suddenly I saw that someone was calling from V. I answered. He was a boy with afro hair. He was wearing glasses.
- Hello! Uh, are you crying?
- Sorry it's just a bad situation.
- Can I help?
- I don't think so..
- Just tell me what's wrong.
- My belly hurts. And I am worried because I am pregnant.
- Whoa! You are pregnant? It can't be. Well you were right! I can't help! Just call a doctor.
- I can't find the card of my doctor...I shouted
- Gurl! Don't worry. Your belly hearts because you are pregnant. I am not sure but I think that's the reason! You have nothing to worry about.
- Well, I don't know! I just want to make sure that everything is ok! I' ll call the doctor as soon as I find his card...I said and put my hand in my skirt's pocket.
- Did you find anything?
- Nope
- Well that's ok, I don't think you have anything.
- Do you have a relationship?
- No. I was actually looking for a boy.
- Really? Then why did you call me?
- I didn't knew you were a girl. In your profile in the gender section, it's says "prefer not to say". So I said to give a try.
- Oh okay. That's cool, we can be friends..I said while I was looking in my bag.
- Yeah! That would be nice! I can help you find a guy. I am really good at that...he said and pulled his glasses off
His eyeliner was so on flick! I couldn't even do this.
- That sounds good but I have to hang up, cause I found the doctor's card. I will send you my number later, just add me so I can find you.
- Ok sweetie! Byee..
So our call ended.
Then I called the doctor. It's was a bit late but I just couldn't wait till tomorrow. I thought that it might be something so bad that I could die while I was sleeping. I don't know why I was so afraid. The doctor said that it was normal and that that's how pregnancy is. I was really terrified when he said that I might vomit or even worse faint again. I have no one here! I will be alone. Those pregnancy symptoms were terrible. I also asked him my silly question - if I can wear makeup while I am pregnant - and he said it doesn't matter for the baby but that it's bad for my skin. Then someone called so I told him I have to go to sleep and our call ended. Then i answered to the one who was calling from V. It was a girl. She was wearing braces and she had black strait hair.
- Uhm hello?... I said
- Hey there love.
- What's up?
- Cool! What about you?
- I am not really well.
- Oh, why?..she said with a playful tonne
- Uh, cause I am pregnant!
- You what? You can't..you can't be pregnant. You mean you have sex with boys?
- Yes. What do you mean?
- You know I am not straight that's why I called you...she said and she winked
- Oh well, we can't still be friends...I said hesitantly.
- Noo! I only want to fuck you...she said desperately.
- Well I don't..and I hanged up.
I was going to block her but then she sent me a message.
LilUnicorn (that's her username): Look I am sorry! I was kidding. I am a lesbian but if you don't like me it's all right. Let's be friends.
Rydel (yeh, actually my name wasn't taken, it's prototype that's why): Ok whatev! We can be friends. I didn't understand you didn't mean it cause I don't know you.
LilUnicorn: That's cool!
Rydel: Gotta go! My baby needs some sleep! Night!
LilUnicorn: Goodnight!
I sent my number to Peter - bigguy (I don't know what he means) and fell asleep in the couch.
The next days I stayed at home! I called my boss and told him that I was vomiting all the time and that I was feeling dizzy. He told me to stay home for a week and come back when I will be better. I couldn't stand all of those symptoms so I called the doctor and asked him if I could take a medicine. He told me that this wouldn't be good for the baby and that I should stay calm and patient. My belly started hurt again. I started crying. I told him that it hearts so much that I want to kill myself. I really wanted to kill myself. He said to calm down and come there (to the same hospital). Then I took my car and went there. Everybody was staring at me and I didn't knew why. «Do I have something in my teeth?» ... I said like I was joking
No one answered. I just skipped what just happened and opened the door of the infirmary.
- Hello sweetie. How are you?
- Hey! Can I ask you a question before you check me?
- Sure what's the matter?
- When I came here, everybody was looking at me as if I've killed someone. Why?
- Oh god! Were they doctors or some random people?
- I think they were doctors.
- They are just jealous because all girls patients are coming to me because I am just good at my job. They' ll probably think that you are one of my chicks. But I love my wife, so I would never cheat on her.
- I understand, if there is a problem I will not come again, I promise. And I won't call again.
- No, no, no it's ok. She knows. Those guys are just stupid.
- Oh ok.
After my check up I left. In one week it would be exactly one month since I got pregnant! In one month I have to make the big decision! Whether or not to keep the baby.