Love me

0.1 - anxiety attacks at school

Saffron's Pov,

It's early, 6am early, and I'm getting up. Man, do I hate early mornings? Not only do I hate early mornings, I despise early mornings. Especially in the winter when it's still dark and cold.

I swing my legs out from under my silky bed sheets and shiver as the cold air hits me. My windows are shut but I left the curtains open last night. Rookie move! I sigh and up, facing my bathroom and walking over to the slightly colder room. As I'm walking towards the door, my phone starts ringing. I smile, knowing it's Brooklyn, and answer on loudspeaker.

"Hey girl." She cheers, propping her phone up onto her mirror. "Heya. Listen I'm just gonna pop into the shower I'll be back out in ten minutes." I shout, closing the bathroom door. I hear her switch on some music and start to sing along. Laughing, I remove my pyjamas and turn the glorious hot water on.

After I finish showering I wrap a towel around my body and strut back into my bedroom. I'm humming Jacob Whitesides' Lovesick. "Back!" I sing towards my phone and drop my towel on the ground. Whilst I get ready, Brooklyn and I have a karaoke party.

I'm downstairs eating breakfast, scrambled eggs and pancakes, when Brooklyn squeals with excitement. "What's up?" I ask her. "Brandon text me! Holy crap I have to send him a selfie on Snapchat now. Is my makeup 'On Fleek'?" She says all in one breath. I assure her it is and start scrolling through Instagram. I notice a selfie my cousin has posted. My heart skips a beat when I see who's in the picture, my current crush and my cousin. I instantly Dm Hayden, my crush, and say good morning. I feel like if I text him enough, maybe some day he'll like me back.

"And then I died. Like seriously. I thought she was gonna read the messages out!" Brooklyn was telling me about her unfortunate run in with her boyfriend, her best friend and his ex- girlfriend. "Did she?" I ask, trying to humour her. "No, thank God." I laugh and check the time on my phone. "My bus is here I need to go." I say to her quickly, looking out the window I see my bus parked just at the side of the road waiting. "Bye!" She says and the call ends.

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"Did you just say, LOVE?" My heart stops and rises to my throat. Anxiety station, train is about to leave, any last minute passengers?

I blush and shake my head, big mistake. My vision blurs from the tears that are forming in my eyes. My lungs are suddenly gasping for air. "I didn't mean to." I stutter. I can't even make out what the shapes in front of me are supposed to be. "Saffron are you OK?" Brooklyn asks. I try to speak but nothing wants to leave my mouth.

-Black-