twisted love

Chapter 23

I got to the hotel and I went straight to take a shower. I really need to cry and this is the only place at the moment where I can do that. It's been 35 minutes sense I got in here and I need to get out so people don't think anything wrong even though I need to cry more. I got out and everyone left to another room. I'm by my self and I just started crying. I can't take this pain anymore. I need to get rid of it. I don't know what to do anymore. The only way is if I kill my self but I try it already and didn't do it. It's 4 am. I guess I fell a sleep last night. I'm by my self, wondering where everyone else. I hear my phone ringing and it's one of the guys and he text me they are at the bar 4 blocks away. Should I go? Do I get drunk and for get about everything? Would this help? I kept thinking about this as I am walking to the bar. I'm at the bar. Should I drink. I never drink before. Should I start now? I kept asking my self. "Get him a drink" said one of my co-worker. I look at him like I'm not ready. I took a shot of tequila and it was the worst taste ever. "It will taste better as you drink it more" said my co-worker. "I'm good, I'll pass" I reply. My phone started ringing and I knew it was maria because I have a special ring tone just for her and it's a text message. "Hey" said Maria text. "Hey" I reply. "I'm off tomorrow" said Maria. "Me too, what would you like to do?" I ask. "Let's go to the mall" reply Maria. "Sure I'll leave tonight and be there tomorrow so well go to the mall" I reply. I said bye to my co-workers  and I'm on my way to the hotel. I grab my house keys and now I'm going to wait for the train. The train is here. I don't want to go home. All the memories are there, I'm trying to forget them. I guess, I might have too start all over again when I come back. I'm at mineola station and Kat house is 3 block away and I don't want to see her again. I'm going to go a longer way to my house but I don't want to see her. As I step out of the train I saw the bus that leaves me across the street from my house. I'm going to take it. I got in the bus. I got out of the bus and and I'm crossing the street and I don't want to enter to my house. I don't want to feel the pain again. This is all for Maria. I'm inside the house and the house it's empty. I really wanted to find someone in here. I'm going to my room and lay down in my bed. "I'm here" I texted Maria. I have nothing better to do but watch tv. I feel like someone is been in my room. I honestly don't remember how I left it but I don't want to remember anything at this moment. I felt a sleep. I wake up to hearing voices. It's my parents. I look at my phone and Maria has reply "that's so nice". "It is but tomorrow is going to be nicer" I reply. "Yes it is" reply Maria. "I feel weird been back home" I reply. I'm going outside my room to the living room to say hi to my parents. My mom looks happy to see me. She got up and hug me. "I have miss you a lot" said my mom. "I do too mom, but soon I'll be back" I reply. I went back to my room wanting to be tomorrow already so I can be with Maria. I lay in bed thinking if going to the mall and walk around is really a date or not. I guess is not but then again I don't care because at least I get to see her. I fell a sleep again. I open my eyes to see it's 7am. I guess I'm used too waking up early for work. "Good morning" I text Maria. I'm looking at the time and it's 10 am and no reply from Maria. I just also realize I don't have my car anymore and how am I going to take Maria to the mall. "Good morning" reply Maria. "How are you" I reply. "Where is my car?" I ask my mom. "Well remember when you broke the door, well to replace the door was $500 and the inspection needed to be done and the windshield crack" reply my mom. " the door I closed to hard fitting with Kat and it broke" I reply with a tear in my eye "but the windshield was not me and the inspection you could of done". "Well I sold it" reply my mom. "We'll thanks for telling me" I reply as a walk to my room. Why would she do this. Knock, knock, knock. "Come in" I reply. "Hi, Kat ask me about you" said my brother. "Oh, what did you tell her?" I ask. "That you moved to Brooklyn" said my brother. "What did she say" I ask wondering if she actually cares. "She say, that's far away" reply my brother. "Oh, ok, thanks" I reply. He walk away and close my door. All the memories are starting to come back. My phone is ringing and is a message from Maria, "I'm ready we can go to the mall now". "Okay, be there soon" I reply. I don't know how to get there, I don't want to take her in the bus and make her walk. I really don't know what to do. I start looking trough my contacts and I have the number to a private taxi and I'm going to call him. I call him and he tell me his busy but his going to send his uncle to take me to the mall. I have too wait 20 minutes. This is the longest 20 minutes. " I'm on my way to pick you up" I text Maria. We are out side her house and she looks so beautiful. She gets in the car and I give her a hug and a kiss in the cheek. We get to the mall and I ask her "are you hungry". "No" she reply. We are going to see a movie first then we are going shopping. We go inside and see the movie call "Machete". She like it. "I'm hungry" said Maria. "Let's go eat" I reply. We get to the food court. "They sell this pretty good teriyaki chicken here, would you like to try it?" I ask. "Sure" reply Maria. We get the food. We find a table. We sit down. "Can I ask you a personal question and u don't have to answer it if you don't want to" Ask Maria. "Sure" I reply thinking this going to end bad. "Why did you break up with Kat" Ask Maria. I look at her thinking how to reply to her question and now it has become an awkward moment. "Well this is awkward" I reply.