captivated || c.yj+i.jb

him

winter. my favorite time of year. days seemed shorter and the temperatures got colder. during the winter is the perfect time to sit and think for a while, or go for a walk, in the borderline frigid air.

i'm new around here. moving from city to city, is nerve wracking. already, being an anxious person, it's not my favorite thing to do. yet, i want change. i got tired of walking around the same block and i got tired of sitting at the same park bench.

as soon as i unpacked everything in my new home, i went for a walk. it's been about, ten minutes of walking and i really am starting to feel lonely now. i had some friends before, i was familiar with the people around me and now, i know no one.

yeah, i know that happens when you move, but i miss seeing them. the people watering their dying plants or passing by the people with their dog. i let out a sigh and saw my breath in the winter air.

as i kept walking, i saw a little park. i let out a little laugh and decided to go there. as i walked in the quaint park, a feeling of nostalgia washed over me, as i was reminded of my little park back at my old home.

i soon found a park bench that i decided i would call my own. when i sat down, i realized you could see everything in this park. from the kids playing around with flushed cheeks from the cold to couples walking around, enjoying each other's presence and warmth in the cold.

i let out a sigh, knowing that i'm going to be alone for a while. it's hard for me to make friends. maybe because i'm mean or because i'm just a distant person. i don't know, i guess i just give off bad vibes to people. i always have to try and make the first move, but then that doesn't work well for me either. during the whole conversation they just look awkward and it seems like they would rather be doing anything and everything than talking to me.

i closed my eyes and leaned back on the bench, just enjoying the serenity and the feeling of loneliness, which is odd. as my eyes were closed, i can hear footsteps approaching me, though, i brushed it off thinking it was just someone walking by.

but, i felt someone's presence next to mine. i opened my eyes and looked at the stranger. it was a guy. a random dude just sat next to me, in a park that i've never been to before, just great. i gave him a confused look before moving slightly away from, not trying to make is discreet.

he let out a small chuckle and looked at me. "don't worry, i'm not here to hurt you. just trying to keep you company. you looked lonely," he spoke to me and flashed me a small smile. i still looked at him, unsure if i should trust him or not. "um, hi. you know you don't have to be here, i was hoping on being alone," i said, trying to sound mean. i don't know why i do this to myself.

i purposely set myself for failure, you need a friend, stop trying to push people away. "you know you don't fool me. this whole being 'cold' thing. people don't like being lonely. it usually brings bad thoughts and i don't want you to deal with that," he said, cutting off my thoughts.

"well you're wrong, i do like being alone. you don't know me so don't assume that i will automatically turn to bad thoughts," i said with a scoff and i looked at him, glaring at him to try and get him to leave me be.

"sorry to disappoint, but i'm not leaving yet. i've never seen you here and i come here almost everyday. who are you?" he asked me. i was reluctant to tell him anything because i still don't know who he is. not a name or anything.

"why should i tell you that? i don't even know your name nor do i know what you're capable of," i said to the stranger. "my name is youngjae and like i said before, i'm not here to hurt you. i'm here to be your friend," he said with a small smile gracing his lips, "what's your name?"

i was still reluctant about telling him my name, but then i thought. maybe if i come at earlier times than i won't see him, so maybe it won't matter if he knows my name or not. "my name is jaebum," i said with a sigh, kind of regretting telling him.

"see, now that's not so hard was it?" he asked me teasingly. i bit back a bitter chuckle and let our a sarcastic laugh instead. "so did you just move here?" he questioned.

"yeah just left everything i knew behind and now here i am talking to a stranger, in a park i've never been to and on a bench i've never sat on before. now can you please leave me alone?" i asked with a snarky tone in my voice.

"yeah, now i'll leave you alone, but i'll see you soon," he said as he got up. he looked at me one last time and gave me a full smile, then he walked away. i rolled my eyes and let out a scoff. i looked around the park one last time and shut my eyes again. as i leaned my head back, a small smile came to my face. maybe, i wouldn't mind if he was my friend. and, i kind of hope to see him again. i let out a small sigh and thought to myself, maybe having a friend wouldn't be so bad. maybe he can make me a better person. i highly doubt that we'll see each other again, but if we do, maybe it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world to happen.

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this chapter was written by -SOONSATION
and i want to thank her sososo much because it's so great and it's an amazing starter for me so thank you thank you thank you!!!