Adore

Go Away

I've been waiting all day for football practice to be over so I can talk to Blake. His practice ended at 6 on tuesdays and its 7:30. My house is not even a 9 minute walk from the school, so what's taking him so long? I'm not a very patient person.

" Zoey told me we needed to talk baby." Blake said. Ugh we do and i've been trying to avoid this conversation for the past week now hoping the arguing would stop but it hasn't.

" yeah and it's not good blake." isabella sighed. Honestly I like Blake so much we've been together for 2 months now. He's everything i've ever wanted plus more.

" Listen Bella baby. If this is about last night i'm so sorry. I didn't mean any of that. I know you care about me and i'm sorry for ever denying that. Honestly baby believe me." I wish I could but I can't. We have a unhealthy relationship. He's always putting me down and telling me I don't try hard enough. Clearly this boy doesn't understand how hard I worked to get his attention. I spent my whole freshman year hanging out with his sister only when he was around. It wasn't until the beginning of senior year when he finally noticed me giving him googly eyes at open house. He offered to take me home that day and we basically hit it off later that night binge watching American Horror Story together.

How do I get straight to the point. I'm so scared I really like him but I can't keep spending my nights crying when I should be studying. It's not good for either of us. Constant bickering over who is right or not.

" Okay blake hun , I can't do this anymore I mean you're a good guy and sweet at times but I can't keep arguing with you. I'm tired of you pinning everything on me. I mean hello you're not that innocent. We are done." God that felt so good to finally get that off my chest. I'm going to miss him so much . Time heals all wounds . Hopefully time is on my good side.

" What the fuck ever Isabella I was going to dump your nasty ass anyways. News flash bitch I just used you to get close to your best friend." Blake screamed at the top of his lungs.

My heart is literally shattered in 1000 pieces. I should have known he'd say something like that. I should have prepared myself. No matter how hard I try I can't seem to hold back the hot tears from trickling down my cheeks.

" bella baby i didn't mean it like th-"

"Go away. Oh and Blake word of advice the door is their and don't let the door hit you where the good lord split you." Yeah yeah I stole that line from my grandma at last years family reunion when uncle tom stole her blood pressure pills. Lets just say he didn't listen the first time so she knocked some sense into him with her cane. Nana ruth is savage.

As I watched him walk out the door my breathing became rapid and my heart was racing , my mind was everywhere and the room started to spin. I knew what was happening I was in the middle of an anxiety attack. I was finally beginning to get my breath back when everything went black.

I woke up in my bedroom hearing the sound of my bedroom shower running , obviously it was my best friend Zoey. I got up and took a anxiety pill in hopes that it will prevent another from occurring within these next 24 hours.

My phone started to play ' Animal by three days grace'. I knew it was Blake so I didn't even bother answering it. Instead I immediately forwarding the calls letting him know that i'm ignoring him on purpose. I never want to deal with him again.

" hey beautiful would you mind telling me why you didn't call me during that anxiety attack? I walked in the house and found you on the ground. do you know bad you scared me woman! I worry about you so much issy. I just wish you'd call me when you're upset. Being upset like that will give you gray hairs before you reach 21. I mean jesus issy blake wasn't worth it anyways."

She was right my anxiety attacks have been getting worse and lately i can't control them. She's the only person who can calm me down. I'm glad she found me , if it was my brother Jeremiah he would've killed blake. Wait how does she know me and blake broke up. oh my god is he talking to her now?

" hey Zoey I love you so much and thanks for helping me , but how do you know about me and Blake? has he already made a move on you?."

" woah there sugar bear he updated his Bio on Insta and never would I ever let him hit on me. Eww go back to sleep i think you hit your head a bit to hard."

This is why I love zoey she always puts a smile on my face and she is so gorgeous. I've been her best friend since 2 days after I got adopted. She shared her Oreo mint cookies with me in 3rd grade. Ever since on fridays we go out and get Oreo mint cookies for our smoke session.

" Well blake called me a bitch and said he only got with me to get closers to you. And Zoey will you hand me the grinder this bud won't grind itself." Marijuana is legal here in Colorado and i've been prescribed it for the past year now. It helps me forget all the bad things and it clears my minds. Everyday after school me and Zoey get together in my room and toke up. At first it was for my disorders and slowly it turned into a habit. if me and zoey didn't have our daily blunt then we were madder than kanye was when taylor swift won a grammy.

" Issy i just heard of this new app called Adore. let me show you since you're single now."

Zoey takes my phone and types in the 4 digit access code to unlock it. she opens up the app store and downloads adore. apparently its a texting app where you can text random people all over the world about whatever your heart desires. Its a cute pink icon with a heart in the middle. When the app is downloaded Zoey sets up my account and hands the phone back to me.

" I basically set your user name and interests up i hope you don't mind that i used our location. i thought it would be cool to talk to random people around town. Your username is Cuddles 420 and you already have a new message. Have fun Issy i gotta go." with that being said Zoey was gone; most likely she's going to Jason's house to see cole. her and cole got together 4 days after me and blake. literally they make each other so happy and they still haven't even got out of the cup cake faze yet. The only argument they had was over whether or not there would be another harry potter movie coming back out.

After locking the door behind Zoey i go back to my room and open up this foolish Adore app.

Mr.Clean69- Hey i wanna c_ddle but I can't because I lost u ;)

That was literally the most corny pick up line i've heard.

Cuddles420- literally i could be a 50 year old granny and you're hitting on me. Dude raise your standards. Oh and i bet you got that off of tumblr ;)

Mr.Clean69- well you're not a 50 year old granny bc you clearly said you could be. And no tumblr got it off of me. lets start over baby girl. Hey i go to summer view high and im 18. Wha about you sweet cheecks?

Cuddles420- first off im not your baby. Ew sweet cheeks is so cliche and why would I tell some stranger named Mr.Clean my info. Obv you could be a stalker or something.

Mr.Clean69- woah check what app you're on. It's full of strangers and honesty im the least of your worries.

Yeah the guy gots a point. Maybe I could give this a try. Shouldn't be to bad. at Least I will never have to MEET this dude.. I hope.

Cuddles 420- I'm sorry it's been a long night. Erm I'll text you tomorrow okay?

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A/N- So this is my first story guys and im so happy. i hope you enjoy this as much as i do. once i get the hang of it ; it should come naturally:))) if you find any part of this stupid in any way shape or form please let me know please. i want to be aware of my crappy writing skills. i was scared to write this story but a good friend of mine encouraged me .