1. Memories, For, When I Am. (Being edited 2024)

Crescendo

A phoenix like fox,

Hear me sing.

Day bright,

Day break,

I awake at sunrise,

my bones crack and align.

I sing in my mind of

a secret lover,

someone I have come to look

to for hope,

I pretend to call her my lover,

The one who has been my best friend.

Days are brighter,

nights grow shorter,

when adding a snare to my drum.

Her name is Kirsten,

I will sing of her even as I am deceived,

as long as I am had...

like she's always wanted.

A chapter comes to a close,

A new light appears to resound,

reverb to a heart beating in isolation

in my chest.

I was lost,

listening to an echo barely there,

Luna forgive me,

Gods forgive me,

Yrlana forgive me,

I was was being given someone I

Couldn't see,

I'll pretend to see her now,

as she sees into me and,

makes me believe she understands the life I will uphold,

and then throw me away without notice

for being Alice.

From the rubble rouses a phoenix waiting to spring,

From the rubble rises a phoenix,

I am that phoenix instilled in "we" the beings in

this world,

I rise after I sunder,

For you, dear me,

Hear me sing.