Mother Nature

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From time to time I would give birth. I was alone. I was crying everyday. I was scared. I didn't even know what to do. I didn't want to give birth. I needed help. I didn't know how to do it on my own. I really couldn't do it on my own. I would die, while I was trying to give birth to my poor children. I would kill my children with my own hands. I wouldn't mean it, but I wasn't a doctor, so I could possibly make a mistake. The time was yet to come. I felt it. I tried to relax, but I couldn't. I took a pain killer, cause my belly started to hurt again. I was dizzy again. I vomited and then fainted. After a couple of minutes, I woke up. The first thing I did was to look at was my belly. It was alright, but I was still scared. It seemed like I wasn't gonna give birth today. I puffed relieved.
After a few days the time came. It was midnight. I was in the dark. I didn't want to open the lights. I liked it like that. I was in the dark and holding my belly. I was breathing heavily. I was cold. I started bleeding. I panicked. I run fast to the bathroom and started searching for tampons. I had to delay it. I wasn't ready psychologically yet. I didn't even know how to give birth on my own. I needed a doctor. I rammed the tampon inside me. I hoped this wasn't bad for my babies. I started screaming. I had to find a way to give birth my own. I turned on my computer fast, I started searching on the Internet. I didn't find anything. Those information were probably deleted from the Internet as soon as the governments founded this law. I tried to call Lana. She didn't answer. I then called Peter. He didn't answer. I called Cindy. She didn't answer either. I was terrified. I decided to call the doctor. He was my only hope. I knew that he betrayed me and I shouldn't call him and he probably wouldn't even answer, but I had to. After he would help me, I wouldn't even talk to him again. I had no other option so I called him. His wife picked up.
- Hello?
- Hey, who is it?
- Rydel, is that you?
- Yeah, how do you know?
- I am your doctor's wife. He is sorry sweetie, he didn't want to do it. They said in an interview that he did it just for money, but they didn't even paid him. They blackmailed him that if he didn't tell them everything he would be in serious trouble and lose his job.
- Really? I thought he betrayed me just for money. I was really disappointed, that's why I didn't call again.
- No sweetie, he really cares about you. He thought that you might be mad, but couldn't called you.
- Can I talk to him?
- Unfortunately, no. He can't communicate with you anymore because they might watch us. That's why he didn't called you as I said.
- But I need help, please. I am ready to give birth. I started bleeding. I put a tampon inside me, I don't know if that's good for the babies, but I didn't know what to do. Anyway please tell him to come here immediately. I have to give birth. Hello?  Can you hear me? Are you there?
Then I realized that my phone stopped working. My battery was dead. I got irritated. I threw my phone out of the window. I was very angry. I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't know what to do.
I fell asleep while I was still bleeding. I couldn't do anything. tried to fall asleep and never wake up again. I wanted to die. I haven't any other options left. I saw a nightmare again. A really bad one. I was in the hospital. Doctors were trying to help me give birth. But there was a big problem. Cameras. Cameras everywhere. My room was full of reporters. They were taking pictures of me and asking me questions. I was confused, I stood up and started running. Reporters started chasing me. A doctor was yelling : «No! Stop that! She has to give birth. Leave her alone for the moment. You can ask her questions after she gives birth.» But no one listened to him. I was still running until I fell on the ground. I was dying. The reporters were still asking me questions. They didn't understand. I started screaming. They all stopped. They disappeared. I was alone again in my white room. I was talking with the doctor. It was so calm. He gave me a painkiller and he helped me give birth. My awful nightmare became a sweet dream.
I gave birth to two beautiful twins. A boy and a girl. It was a magical moment for me. After that I breastfed my children. I was so happy. I was really happy. But only in my dream. Then I woke up. My bed was full of blood. I waked up from a noise, it sounded like a clack. It was a shot. Suddenly a man appeared in my room. He entered from the window. I was only with my bra and string. I couldn't see his face. He was wearing a mask. «I am gonna kill you»; he shouted. I started screaming. I couldn't believe that this was happening. I wanted to wake up. I wanted it to be a nightmare. But it wasn't. This time it was true. It was in real life. I panicked. I was terrified. My life was officially over. I was stupid. I was stupid throwing my phone out of the window. If I had my phone I could call for help. He wouldn't let me but at least I could try. But there was something missing. Yeah, my phone. «No one's gonna help you, nobody will hear you.» : he said laughing. «Who are you? What do you want?» : I shouted «You will never know. I am here to give your life to an end, but first I am gonna make you suffer for making the worst mistake of your life» : he said and grabbed my arm. He hit me many times with a horsewhip. He was laughing when he was hitting me. I was doing the opposite. I was crying. I was screaming for help but literally no one heard me. No one came. My entire body was bleeding. I didn't care about me. I was crying, because my babies suffered too. They didn't deserved it. This man was hitting me all the time in my belly. He was a beast. He also slapped me many times. He was laughing all the time. He was laughing as if he was watching a comedy. «I hate babies.» : he said. «But do you know what I hate more? Women. And you are a pregnant woman. You are a woman with babies in your belly. That makes me hate you doubly.» : he said, while he was hitting my belly with his horsewhip. He was hitting me for an hour. He told me he got bored so he took me by my hair and dragged me and he threw me in the stairs. He tied me up and took my bra and string off. He started hit my naked body with the horsewhip. He was hitting my boobs and belly furiously. «Nooo! My babies! Stop it, asshole» : I screamed «Did you say something bitch?» : he said and slapped me. «I can't breath, stop, please» : I said while I was crying. «No, I want to have the joy to kill you» : he said and grabbed his gun out of his pocket. «Are you ready to die?» : he asked while he put the gun at my temple.
«No, I want to give birth first, then kill me» : I said calm. «Too bad, little girl» : he said and shot my belly. I fell down. My pinafore and hands were tied up. I couldn't move. I was bleeding. I was seriously bleeding now. Then he sot my temple. I started losing my senses. I was dying. The only thing I saw was him shooting his temple. He killed himself! We were both dead. I failed! I lost my battle to make the world better. I lost the change to be a mother. But most importantly I didn't make it to bring those babies to life. I was dead. The only woman, who could give birth was dead.
You are confused now, right? Who was this man? Why did he did this? What did he want? After my death everybody forgot about me. The only thing they knew was that I was dead. They didn't know the reason. Nobody never found out the cause of my dead. I just disappeared. They didn't even found my body. That's what they said to people. But I' ll tell you everything. I'll tell you the truth. After governments found out I was pregnant they wanted to kill me, but they couldn't,  because if someone found them, that would destroy them. They tried to find another way,maybe to let me give birth and then they would cut my period and the girl's period after a couple of years. But people wanted me to continue this battle and make the world like it was before. I was a hero to them. My family was a hero to them. Yeah they actually searched about my family and found out about my story by the shitty doctor. I was still mad at him. They decide to kill me, because people would probably hate them if they did those things, but if they put someone else to kill me, no one would find out they put him (because he killed himself after he killed me). So they paid a woman hater to kill me. He didn't accept about the money but because he hated woman and he would do this with joy. He killed hisself, because he didn't want to suffer in prison. After a couple of days governments from all over the world traveled to America and got in my house to see what happened (like they didn't know). They saw that we were dead and called the police. Police took us and examined our case and found out that this woman hater killed me by his finger prints on the weapon. No one ever found out that governments put him. Everyone made their own scenario about my death.
How do I know all those things? I am in heaven now. I am with my mom and we are now watching the whole world. We are watching the evolved world and we will see what would be the evolution of this world. I knew. I told her about what happened. I knew the half of the story - because when I died I could see everything that happened after my death in the whole world - my mom told me the other half. I wish people knew. I wish they wouldn't leave governments destroy the human species. Governments were so stupid. They actually haven't thought that with this way the human species will disappear. It was too late now. Human species lost their chance to not disappear.
After a couple of years elder people died. Now all people were made by scientists. Those scientists were now dead. People knew what to do and some of them became scientists, that was the new world. Scientists made the babies and people adopted them, they was their children because they gave their ova and sperm, but it wasn't the same. It was "better" now. Yeah, only for the governments because they wanted to control the population. Some people were sad, some people were happy with this. It's all about interest. Every person has their own interests. The world became just like I was saying. The world was now worse than it was when I was alive. Soon, in a couple of years, the human species would disappear, like the doctor said. I was right. About everything.