Temptation

Chapter 1-Pain

Phil's version

       It seemed like a normal day I was coming home from the store and I felt like something was wrong at home, but I couldn't tell why,but I tried to get home faster. When I got home I noticed the door was a crack open I was freaking out inside me head! "Dan!" I yelled, no answered I was scared why wouldn't Dan answer me. I didn't want to go in ,but I had to , I walked in slowly and then I saw him, lying on the floor. For a moment I thought he was just past out and I could just try to wake him up, but when I shook him, I saw the other side of his neck, and the other side of the floor. Blood everywhere , tears came down my face one by one I couldn't stop, I could barley breath "Dan , Dan don't go please I can't live with out you!" I cried. Then the tears got heavier they just wouldn't stop I hugged Dan as tight as possible. Then I though why am I not calling the police, what am I doing?! "Okay Phil" I said trying to calm my self down "just go back out side and go for a walk and think." I wiped the tears away from my face. I walked for only an hour but it seemed like days I couldn't think straight my best friend just died in my arms, I tried not to think about it but the thought kept coming back, I cried "Lord please don't let this be the end I can't do life on my own!" Then everything stopped it was like time it's self was no longer in existence. I dropped to the ground and curled up in a ball tears still dripping down my face, I didn't even care what I looked like or if I looked crazy I know that most people would do the same thing if they just saw the best friend die.

      I went back I knew what awaited me I had to call his family at least. But I was to upset I moved Dan's body to his room, I laid him on his bed, then I tried to sleep all of this off. 5:00 A.M I still couldn't sleep the fact that he was dead just kept coming back I was having nightmares seeing his pale skin again and again. "Phil why did you have to get those Cheetos your friend might have not of been dead if you came back sooner!" I just kept blaming myself for everything like "Why wasn't I there to stop it!" "You could have done something Phil!" I had so much mixed emotions I just was staring to hate myself.

          It was 9:00 A.M I looked at Dan I missed him. I screamed " I hate life!" "Life isn't the same without you Dan!" I cried on his chest, I had to call his mother so I picked up the phone. I started to dial the number but I couldn't the pain was already bad to hear a mom find out her kid died that would just make me want to cry even more. So I sent her a text message. I know that was probably offensive and rude but I told her I couldn't call her. ... She started to text back I could feel a giant limp in my throat.  She said " I understand why you couldn't call you and Dan were very close thank you for telling me Phil." I wiped the sweat off me for head and breathed, but I felt so bad still.

           I went on my computer I looked at all my tweets and tumbler pages still trying to get things off my mind it didn't help all my Twitter and tumbler stuff was of Phan , or just me or of (I sighed) Dan, Goddamn I miss him so much, but why? I looked at the Phan stuff then I shut it of and pushed it away I couldn't handle it. I went in Dan's room I just sat there and looked at him. He was so still no breath it hurt . But then something fell on my lap from the shelf above me. "Jesus!" I said in shook. It was a pitch black netbook that said diary on it . I knew I shouldn't have opened it , but I felt like I had too. I read it all the way tell after this message too me from Dan, "Dear Phil , I have always been nervous to tell you this but I love you and I don't know how you will take this but I think I'm in love with you and I'm not letting the Phan things get to my head, I never would but I just feel I can't breath around you and my heart jumps, I just can't say it to you so when I am no longer i kinda thought you would read my diary but I love you Phil you and only you and I know you probably don't feel the same wa.." I closed it and I said "I love you too Dan more then a best friend and I was nervous to tell you too." A tear came down my face with both sadness and happiness knowing  that he loved me back.