A Summer Of Songs.

chapter 13

I got in the door at about 8:45 soaking wet, cold and unhappy. I tried to put on a smile for my family but when destiny came running up to me asking me how it went and if we kissed I couldn’t help myself bursting into tears and I had to run up to my room.

Faith followed me and called up my stairs “hope hunny you want to talk about it? What did the boy do to you?”

“get lost Faith I don’t want to talk to anyone” I called back crying silently into my pillow. I heard her go back to the others and tell them to leave me a while. I rolled over and switched on my laptop. And there it was right as I left it nickel back never gonna be alone on YouTube so I started making a playlist called that boy I put in all the songs we had sent each other and all the songs that remind me of him and I put it on repeat listening to the lyrics remembering everything we had said to each other and how we had never kissed or said I love you but I knew he did love me.

Then I got a text from him the divine comedy- everybody knows (except you) listen. I did, the lyrics ‘And I'll get through to you if it's the last thing that I do’ really got to me. I put it on the playlist, and then replied with my chemical romance- I don’t love you listen. I did love him but he hurt me and I wanted him to listen to ‘Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating’

I fell asleep listening the whole playlist over and over again.

I woke up with mcfly the heart never lies in my ear from my laptop. The lyrics -‘But we are the lovers If you don’t believe me Then just look into my Cause the heart never lies eyes ’echoing round my head. The playlist had kept going though out the night.

I thought about what I had done and everything Blaze and I had been through. I couldn’t just give him up just like that could i? but he had left me, forgot me and it made me feel really low and down and he had really hurt me and maybe I didn’t mean all this to him really. I’ll leave it one more day I thought see if he cares enough to come back to me.

“Faith” I said shaking her awake

“What? What do you want?” she said. She has never been a morning person

“a lift to work? Please”

“what? Why? What about that boy?”

“erm we had an argument”

“oh god yeah I remember” she said sitting up in bed almost hitting her head on the bunk bed above her “come on then” this is when I love having an older sister like Faith she annoys me so much sometimes but when I need her she is there for me with the best advise too.

“thank you Faith” I aid as I looked out of the window and I saw Florida sitting there engine on and Blaze sitting in the front glancing round to the door as if he were expecting me to just walk out there like nothing had happened, like my feelings meant nothing. “faith hes out there what do I do?” I called

“hang on” she came hopping through the door one leg in her tights and one leg out “I’ll go talk to him”

“No wait faith” to late she was already out there walking towards him, in a death match type style.

Luckily the walls of the squeaky cow were quite thin so I could hear her load voice

“what do you want? What have you done to my sister? What’s so bad that she cries herself to sleep and stops smiling?” I hear her say

“I forgot her” he said with his head down looking like he was about to burst into tears he put Florida in gear and drove off.

Hope came walking back “come on” she yelled “did you hear what he said?” she asked as I got In the car

“yeah”

“okay well like what did happen?” she is so nosey

“Faith, now? Really?”

“well you know I’m just looking out for my baby sister”

“I’m a big girl now; let me fight my own fights now”

“okay whatever, you can walk from here” she said pulling over I could see the shopping centre in the distance

“thank faith bye love you” I called at the retreating car and I started walking to work.

 “‘Ello hope!” I heard as I was walking past the food on the way to work-it -I was incredibly lonely without Blaze- I turned in the direction the voice had come from to see Tone grinning at me

“oh hello Tone” I said going over to her food stand, I was ealy so I had time for a chat

“wheres Blaze?” she asked

“we had a bit of a fall out” I said suddenly feeling very torn inside

“i'm sorry to ‘ear dat”

“yeah I kind of miss him you know”

“talk of the devil an’ he shall appear” she said nodding over my shoulder

 “oh god I’m so sorry Tone I have to go bye” I said deciding in that moment to arrive to work early and starting to walk off, before blaze got to us hopefully.

But I had forgotten how long his legs were, he grabbed my arm “hope, please listen to me” he said the cheeky smile I was so used to seeing light up his face had gone and was replaced by a sad, lost lonely look in his eyes, one you might find on a dog on a dog rehoming advert.

“tell it to someone who cares Blaze” I said pulling my arm free and making my way to work.