[Osomatsu-san] The Saddest People Smile the Brightest

Prologue: "Liar"

(1st Person POV of Jyushimatsu)

Hello, feelings. We meet again.

"Everyone has their own facade, big or small."

And mine is very big.

"Sometimes they are used to construct impermeable and unbreakable walls, and sometimes they are used to tear them down to the point where they are irreparably damaged. Sometimes they are used to boast, and sometimes they are used to humble oneself. Sometimes they are used to heal, and sometimes they are used to maim."

Sometimes...

"Facades are not really used for just one single purpose, but one thing is certain: they are always built up with lies, be it painted white as snow or crimson red as blood. Though no matter what the lie is, the more it's committed the more...sweet it is. So deliciously sweet, but it's not just simply 'sweet.' I find that it's...saccharine in such an utterly wretched way that it actually, quite contrarily, leaves a bitter taste in your mouth."

No, scratch that.

"...with a bitter aftertaste in your mouth. You know it's wrong to lie. You know it's morbid. You know it's more likely to lead you to a darker road. But no. Doing it more only gives you the best reassurance in the world that no one can ever see through you...especially for me because...everyone will be hurt if they knew of my true feel-"

Oh shoot, now I'm not smiling anymore.

Why are you crying? Stop it, you idiot. Stop being such a baby. You're just being a child. An imbecile. You'll just hurt everyone else if you continue to be this way...

Come on, it's not as hard as you think. You've been doing this for years now. All you have to do is smile. Yes, smile! Then, everything will be fine! Okay, let's pick this pen up and try this again, feelings.

"-ings..."

What must I do now...?

"So right, I need to keep smiling no matter what ('A Sextuplet's Journal' 中)."

Yup, this must definitely never be seen. Oh wait, someone is coming in, but I can't see his face through the tears.

"Hey, we've been wondering where you were. Are you alright?"

Oh, it's him.

"What are you doing in the dark alone?"

Say something...Anything!

"Nothing! Nothing at all!"

Now...why is he not responding? What is he looking at? 

"Your eyes are red. What happened to you?"

Please stop asking so many questions..!

"Oi! Are you even there?" he asked, both jokingly and worriedly while waving his hands in front of my face. "Why are your eyes red?"

Wipe them away. Wipe them away. Wipe them away and stop acting like an idiot!

"They're not red, nii-san! See? They're perfectly fine! It's nothing! Absolutely nothing is wrong!"

Just another lie stacked on top of countless other lies. No big deal.   

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Ok, this is my first time writing a fanfic, so I feel very...jittery and nervous about it haha

I guess this fic was kind of partly created on a whim, partly to practice my writing, partly to relieve my boredom, and partly to sort of vent some of my negative emotions in a more healthy manner (no, I don't have chronic depression or anything of the sort). Nevertheless, I hope you enjoyed reading it, despite all the cliches. I also hope that I can publish more chapters in the near future if I'm not too busy, or if my laziness doesn't get the better of me.