Love Me Harder

Decisions of a Leader

1 DAY AFTER MOUNT WEATHER

Lexa's tent was setup and all she could do was pace inside. The look in Clarke's eyes almost broke her. She promised herself to never love again. The brunette wasn't even sure it was love but it was something. Costia was a weakness. A weakness that being the Heda of the 12 clans couldn't, no shouldn't have. She was the Grounder Leader, and that required making decisions that weren't always easy. Clarke was new to being a leader; she has yet to face making these kinds of decisions. The time Lexa spent with her, she knew Clarke would have done the same thing to save her people. Long before she met Clarke Griffin she pledged herself to the Grounders. She sat in her throne and closed her eyes. For tonight she was going to stop thinking of the blonde. For tonight she was going to clear her head of everything that happened the other day. For tonight she was going to concentrate on getting her people home. Thoughts of Polis drifted into her mind. The City she yearned to go back to. The memory of asking Clarke to go with her crept into her memories. No matter what she couldn't get the blonde out of her thoughts.

Indra approached the guards outside her commander's tent. "I have news for Heda," she pushed right past them not waiting for an answer. She was never one to not completely follow orders but she knew this information was important. Walking inside the tent she saw her leader. Indra observed Lexa. Her eyes were shut as if in a deep meditation but her body held that perfect posture. Knowing how dangerous the brunette leader was she softly jolted her from her thinking quietly saying, "Heda?"

The brunette sat still. She heard someone in her tent and knew just by her senses who it was. She slowly opened her eyes. This could be a distraction she needed. Her eyes looked onto the former chief of Tondc, "Chit ste em?"

Indra stood up straighter when her commander looked at her, approaching closer only when she was spoken to, "I have news of Mount Weather." She purposely avoided naming the Leader of the SkyPeople. Her distaste for her was evident. There was no need to further voice that opinion, especially to the Heda. Even though some of the SkyPeople were growing on her she still didn't fully trust them. The blonde in particular she wanted far away from her leader. She saw small changes in Lexa since Clarke. The tiniest of changes could have the largest of consequences.

The commander felt her heart flutter at hearing Mount Weather. She knew who she left behind there. She would not show it. The brunette would keep a stone face never letting emotion cross over her face. Feelings she learned to keep control of long ago. Let no one know your thoughts were one of the first rules she taught herself. It was not something she would waiver on. The commander didn't so much as blink as she said, "Go on."

The warrior never let her gaze fall from her commander. "The SkyPeople abandoned their leader." Seeing no reaction from her leader she continued, "Clarke killed the rest of the Mountain Men. I was informed one of the men escaped." Indra didn't go into detail. She was always straight to the point. Clarke survived, as much as she wanted the two leaders apart, it was important information. Whatever the short haired warrior felt towards the blonde leader didn't change the fact; she was the SkyPeople's commander. That was enough to make her tell Lexa.

For the first time in a very long time the brunette fought hard to keep her face straight. She fought against the corners of her mouth that were twinging to pull up. She could taste the blood in her mouth from biting her inner cheeks. She would not let that smile form in front of any Grounder, especially this one. Indra was a longtime friend and one of her best soldiers. The dark skinned warrior was also not a fan of emotions hardly ever showing any of her own. Doing her best to not move a muscle she dismissed Indra. She didn't thank her for the information that was not what they do. The brunette slowly stood up from her throne. She paced back and forth no longer fighting the smile. Going towards her sleeping chamber she thought to herself how that was the decision a leader would make. Laying down she wondered how Clarke would be after such a choice. It would weigh heavy on her. Remembering how Clarke was after killing her former lover Finn almost tore her apart. During that time Lexa was there to help her through it. All of her wanted to find the blonde and comfort her. As she drifted to sleep knowing as much as she wished she could do that she never would.