It was nice knowing that even though i'm still young i have so many people supporting me during this time. Today i have a doctors appointment to check on how the baby is developing. I was two months into the pregnancy and it was definitely stressful. Luke still doesn't know but the other guys check in on me constantly.
Liz had stuff to do today and my mom was sick so Calum's mom offered to drive us. We were in the car on our way to the doctors and i was texting Calum.
I hope its a girl!
Calum it's only been 2 months haha! I can't find that out until at least four to five months. But honestly i hope it is too!
I'll try and text you again tonight! We gotta go do a mic check. Love you mucho! Let me know how the appointment goes.
I will! Love you too! Have fun!!
I set my phone down in my lap and sighed. I've been super nervous about how things are gonna go. I've been doing online school so that people won't freak out on me for being pregnant.
"We're here." I heard as my door opened. I looked over and saw Amanda sticking her hand out for me too grab. I thanked her and grabbed her hand before climbing out. We walked inside and made our way to the front desk where we were greeted by a very happy lady.
"Hello there! What can i do for you guys today?" She smiled.
"I have an ultrasound appointment with Dr. Mcarthy at 3:45." I said returning her contagious smile. She nodded her head and started typing on the computer.
"Right on time! I just checked you in. Go on and have a seat and she'll be out in a moment!" She smiled nodding towards the waiting room. We thanked her and went to sit down.
"Are you excited?" Joy asked after i sat down.
"Most definitely! I was nervous at first but it's been great having you guys by my side. I t makes this a lot more tolerable." I chuckled. We all talked about random stuff and within 5 minutes i was in the room on the table. I shivered as the nurse covered my stomach in the gel stuff.
She placed the wand on my stomach and we all turned our heads to the screen. I could see the small blob that was my developing child. I looked to the doctor to see what she would say but she was just frowning at the screen.
"Is there a problem nurse?" I asked as feelings of panic filled my body.
"I'm not sure. Let me go get if Dr. Mcarthy." She said before quickly standing and leaving the room.
"I lost the baby." I mumbled as my eyes started watering.
"Don't say that love." Joy frowned sitting on the bed next to me and stroking my hair. We waited a couple minutes, which felt like hours, before the nurse returned with the doctor.
"Hello Miss. Hill." The doctor smiled walking in. I smiled back but didn't say anything. We watched as the doctor and nurse whispered to each other stuff while pointing at different spots on the screen.
"Doctor... What's going on?" Amanda asked after a moment. She turned around with a frown and my heart sank.
"I'm very sorry Zoey. But since you are slightly underweight and kind of young your body couldn't handle it. The baby didn't make it." She frowned. Everything inside of me shattered. I felt like puking. At first i didn't really want any of this but after realizing this is gonna be my flesh and blood i was beyond excited and now it's not even gonna happen.
I didn't say anything, just gave her a light nod as I tried to hold back my tears. I couldn't though everything inside of me was screaming. I didn't realize how hard I was crying until I was gasping for air. Everyone huddled around me and I just continued to cry. After about 10 minutes the doctor explained to me what was gonna happen now and then we left.
My heart was completely broken. The whole ride was silent and I couldn't help but think this was my fault. I guess now I don't have to be worried about telling Luke. Now all I have to do is hope I can get through the next couple of weeks.
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Guys I'm SOOOOOOO sorry! It has been WAY to long since I updated. But I have a job now and school started so I've been super busy. I might do ONE more chapter after this but then the story will be over and I'll be starting on Part II!! Love you all! 💕😘
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Someday~ 5sos (L.H.)
Fanfiction"Luke i'm sorry...Please just go and make things better with your mum. We will be together again." I told Luke as tears started to fall from his eyes. "When?" He whispered. "Someday..."
