You're Not Alone...

Chapter 4: We Are Always Searching

[Victoria's P.O.V.]

I just ran. I didn't know where I was running to, I just knew I had to get far away. Before I got too attached. Before I got hurt. Before I found out Ashley didn't care. Like everyone else... And I almost kissed him... STUPID!! What the hell were you thinking, Victoria?! He couldn't fucking care about you. You're a stupid fangirl and you're not even 18... He doesn't give a fuck... Just like your good-for-nothing parents...

I snapped out of my thoughts & walked into an alleyway. It was dark, and kinda creepy. Something straight out of a horror movie. I couldn't get out of my mind that something bad was supposed to happen. As I sank to the ground and curled up, I expected a scary, big man to come out of the shadows and pin me against the wall or the ground. I kept my eyes peeled; I wouldn't let myself be vulnerable. Yet I'm sure I couldn't fight anyone off... I'm sure it would happen again. I started crying. I would be a little nobody that no one wanted. I street rat. My family would have called if they cared... So I just sat there, still as a rock.

For hours, I watched people walk past the alley, but no one walked into it. I was safe. For now... But I was now soaked & freezing. I had nowhere to go. What would I do? I can't go home... I'll get... Hit. Screamed at. Something. I have no friends... Well I have Andy, CC, Jake, & Jinxx... But no! I can't go back. Ash doesn't care about me. He said so.... DUMBASS. You KNOW you put him up to it! You cut him off! It's not what he meant, and you know it!! Stupid bitch...

Tears fell to the ground as I battled with my own thoughts. Eventually my mind was made up. I had to find someone to take care of me. But it wouldn't be easy.

I continued to walk around the city, soaked. Maybe someone would feel bad for me... But I was so tired... I couldn't... I wanted to keep going and find shelter. But I couldn't. I was just so tired... And this alleyway has been safe the whole night so far... A few more hours couldn't kill me...

My thoughts slowed as I curled up on the ground. The wet pavement was suddenly so warm and inviting... Fuck, I can't fall asleep! Not here. Not yet. Wait and go find a real place to stay... One that's safe...... One near...... Him.........

Then everything went black...