Happy Hurts (Slow Updates)

Chapter 4 - John "Johnny" Meyers

"Fame isn't always easy, you always need to act to be someone different from who you are, when the pressure is too much you stop pretending!"

His Agent sighed for the forty fifth time in a about ten minutes. His Client was reading an article, which was pretty important.

'Young Star Johnny Meyers, who had a kickstarter career seems to fade out of everyone's mind. His latest movies weren't even considerered as good one's. Thanks to his acting, it weren't really good. Maybe he was just casted for his looks, maybe someone actually considered him a decent actor. Some people laughed it off saying he never was and never will be a good actor. We just hope he finds something else to do with his life. We wish you the best of luck Johnny!'

He laid the tablet down in front of his Agent. He raised an eyebrow to ask what he wanted from him. His Agent sighed again. Forty- sixth. His Agent looked at him and smiled.

"You need to come down from the High you are on. Be more a down to the ground guy. All these people don't want to see an actor who is an asshole. Even RDJ isn't really like that, he just seems cocky but is actually a down to the ground guy. You are just, well how do I put it nicely? An ass, always getting shit face drunk, who spits on his Fans. That isn't what people want to see! Your acting suffers from it, just get over and done with that attidute of yourself and be a normal person people can realte to."

"I don't want to bend for people, just because they want me to be different! I just don't want to." His Agent sighed yet again.

"Alright then there is no Chance for you, the production wanted to replace you in the movie. It is better for the movie anyways, your acting is suffering and I bet you just act the way you do because you are insecure! Just pull your head out of your head and get over with it!" With that his Agent left the now eerie silence of the room.

The man looked down at his hands, he just couldn't grasp how they could through him out! Him out of all people. He was a good actor, probably. He was praised for his good work before. So why now? Why him?

Some things he will never understand. He sighed and stood up from his place. He walked out of the room to his trailer and packed his stuff away into a suitcase. Back to LA was his only Chance, well the only thing he could do.

He didn't want to 'upset' anyone more then he probably already did. Some things are just too much for him sometimes. The worst part is that his Agent was right he has insecurities. Thanks to everything that has happened.

He loved acting it was his passion, but he didn't knew how to cope with the sudden fame. He just couldn't cope with being that much in the limelight. All he wanted was to act and not for people suddenly being interested in what he wanted to do.

The movie he was currently filming on wasn't a big shot, hell it was some low budget production. He was kicked out of it, he just didn't understand why no one wanted to cast him anymore. He felt that he was being pressured into being in the spotlight and pretending it. Faking it for everyone, but he is only human.

Some things you can change some not. It seems that he doesn't want to change a thing. Not himself anyways, his last relationship ended badly, both of them were on fault. He knew that, he also knew that if you find the right woman you are willing to change. He hasn't met her yet.

He purchased a ticket to LA. The City of Angels. He actually snorted when he saw how that City really was. People trying to get famous, getting to act and end up killing themselves because they can't take it anymore. Yeah, sure Angels. Everyone only sees the bright side of that City, not the dark side. He could puke at what he sees in the Media about it.

That City just isn't what everyone deems it to be, but in order to get casted you kind of needed to be there. There are many things that happened to him in all the times he was there. There are also many things not right with his family but that is another story.

When he finally was on the plane he kind of felt relieved. He didn't need to be on Set anymore. He didn't need to Star in a bad movie. He was free to audition. He sighed and run a hand through his hair. Still he felt like something was missing he just didn't knew what it was. All he wanted was to act and just get recognized for a good Job and then be left alone.

But that wasn't the case. He was getting famous but now he was getting more and more Unknown. He felt a little relieve coming to that knowledge. He never really wanted the fame. Know he get's what he wants getting unkown. Only his Hardcore Fans knew him anymore.

They even would pay for a movie that is total shit. So there is that. He looked out the Planes window and he knew that he was kind of being ridicioulus of this thing. But he couldn't change his feelings. Nor could he change the fact that they replaced him. That is alright because they are still in an early process of filming. That meant they could replace him and reshoot what they filmed with him.

He sighed as he watched the people and houses disappear into the far. He didn't see anything except the clouds who you could see from up here. He leaned his head back and closed his eyes. He thought about everything. His life is slowly falling apart and he didn't knew what to do. He only knew that he won't be able to fix this.

Slowly he fell asleep and woke up shortly after. He sighed and sat back against his seat. Only a few more minutes until he is in LA again. He has screwed his life and he knew it. He also knew that if he screwed up his own life it will be harder for him to fix it again.

When the plane landed he stood up and took his things with him. He got of and wanted to retrieve his luggage. He didn't saw it and waited for about an hour when he finally saw his luggage. He took it called an Taxi and told the driver where to go. He got out and watched his apartment complex. He thought about his ex. She was a good girl, if he could change a thing he would.

He walked up the stairs and opened his door. He put his luggage down and fell face first on his couch. He was about to Cry and he didn't knew why. His life is shit. He just knew it. He rolled over and now lay on his back. He looked at the ceiling. Not caring about anything now.

After hours he stood up and decided to open his luggage. The first thing he was greeted with was the sight of a white envelope. His forehead crinckled and he wondered where that came from. He picked it up and didn't thought about it more. He put it away and put his other belongings away.

After he did that he took the envelope and frowned again. He took it and opened it. There was a paper where nothing stood on. He turned it around and saw an adress. What is this? What am I supposed to do? He wondered he turned the envolope and a key fell into his hand.

He took of to the adress. He looked at the house and walked in. He took the elevator. When he arrived on the fiteenth floor he saw a young bruenette walking to the door he was also sent to.

"You also have on?" He asked holding up the envelope. The girl seemed to be afraid of him and he didn't knew why.

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A/N: and so the circle closes.