Or is it just me?

as i walk into my house after getting home from school, i go to my bedroom to sit on my bed and check my phone. A text message is on the screen " hey" , but i dont know the number so i text back asking "who is this" . The mysterious number replies with "Jole smiles"  i sit there thinking to my self i have never really talked to this person why are they talking to me? so i end up replying cautiously, "oh hey how are you"

as i wait for a text back i sit there wondering, i really didnt understand out of all people why he texted me. i just didnt get it, we never even really talked, but i have known him since the 4th grade. which i mean i guess doesnt make it awkward hopefully, he texted back with a question this time! "good wbu? but i was wondering if you would like to go to the movies sometime?" as a fast texter i am i replied with "i dont even know you that well".

asking my self "what the hell just happend  why is jole texting me i never even like noticed him i guess untill now". should i give him a chance? i keep repeating in my head as i wait for  him to text back.

"hey sorry im at baseball camp and i had to go do some drills, okay then we should get to know eachother some more then" staring at my phone im sitting here blank minded wondering why he was texting me at baseball camp, thinking to my self  (text me when you get home if your at baseball camp.) but as i did i replied with "why are you texting me at baseball camp?"

  as i sit there to think about what he will say i think to my self this is kind of annoying i'm not sure about this kid.

Should i? i dont know all of these thoughts running through my head are making me want to throw up! whoa he texted  back pretty fast this time. " because me and my friend were talking about what girl we actually like and you came to my mind even though i always see you in the hall way and on the bus i just never had the guts to actually talk to you".

OH my lord where the hell did that come from? yes it was so sweet but now i feel bad because i wasnt really sure if i was gonna give this boy a chance.

i texted him back saying "ohh i see and thanks"  OKAY Hannah get your head stright,  yes i actually think im going to give him a chance.

thinking to my self okay i will go on the date with him! he texted me back saying "lol ahah but forreal i want to take you to the movies" i have that shocked looked on my face, so i replied with "i still not sure if i know you well enough" texting back as fast as possible he says "my favorite color is red i like to party and hanout with my friends and i want to take you to the movies is that enough for you?"

HOLY SHIT, i guess it was enough for me. i actually am going to give him a chance okay hannah you can do this. so i ended up repliying "if you say so" even though i dont know who this kid is that well... but i sit on my bed day dreaming off trying to think about what he looks like again

buzz buzz buzz

my phones vibrates and i look to check it

he texted back saying "so its set friday we will go" i replied with a"yes".

FRIDAY!!!

omfg i dont want to go, im so nervous having this be my first date with a guy i dont even really know.

what was i gonna do?, i guess i just have to suck it up and just go for it.

i arrived at the movies waiting paitantly for jole to arrive i sit down. Oh shit hes here as Joles walking in and i start to get butterflies that were aching in my stomach, even though we barley know eachother it just doesnt make sence .

i stand up awkwardly gazing in his brown eyes as his hair is still messy from the wind out side  i classicly say "hey" (he smiles). we get our tickets and head into the theater room.  we sit there awkwardly waiting for one another to say something. but we didnt say anything, as tge commercials pass i start to think to my self should i start a conversation? should i talk to him? i take a breath and right before i say something the movie starts.

DAMN IT. i ended up not saying anything to him. what the hell Hannah god your a dumb ass, being paticent i wanted the date to end but it seemed like for ever sitting there, and you are feeling like your by your self and start to wonder is he actually intrasted in me?

the movie finally eneded, and he didnt make any moves, was i supposed to? thinking to my self,

we went back by the doors to wait for our parents to pick us up. as we waited we sat there awkwardly and didnt say a word. finally my mom pulled up in her tiny blue car and let me drive. i did say bye thinking that he would have at least gave me a hug or something comon dude lets get the hint you asked me on this date for a reason! maybe he was just being a gentalmen? i thought to my self as i walked away.

As the week goes by were talking more and more maybe to where he actually likes me and i like him. These flirty texts are making me smile more than i usually do. he just so cut whats going to happen? i think to my self while pounding my head into the wall because im so egar for him to ask me out.

Why hasnt he done it ye? maybe its me? im not sure but hes a really great guy and i just wabt to be with him i want him, more than he actually knows, i havent really made it seem like i want him to ask me but the thing is i honestly do.

oh lord please let this happen. as i sit there on my bed thinking it in my head to my self.

beep beep beep

my phone goes off finally jole texted me for the first time today and its 6  o'clock, he does usually text me around like 1 maybe but that shouldnt matter because were not dating.

" Hey" as i reply to his text i lock my phone and throw it on the bed, still thinking about why it was so late he texted me. ummm?!? he probably had something to do today but i dont want to ask him if its something personal.

i tend to pick my phone up again and as i gaze upon my bright blue wall paper his name is surly at the top of my notification bar with a message.

the message does say "what are you doing tonight?"  um. does he want to hangout or something, what? so as i reply with "going to the roller rink" FUCK should i have said that? asking my self over and over again . he replies faster then usual with "oh i am going to my friend balieys house" . okay good!! i speak it under my breath. My mind goes blank and i end up getting ready.

i finnaly reached the roller rink meeting up with some friends from middle school.  i notice that he hasnt replied and i started to wonder, going through my messages i see i havent replied. what the fuck is wrong with me. As soon ad i got in the roller rink i text him "hey sorry i forgot to text you back" .

omfg what is he going to think of me know like maybe i have better things to do then talk to him.?