A GIRL.

Depression.

Depression is a strange thing. 

Most people experience it differently. It's more than just feeling down. 

Its losing the ability to enjoy the things you used to. You isolate yourself most of the time. Some days you sleep hours on end, others not at all. You over eat and under eat. Depression controls how you interact with people. How you think about the world. How you think about yourself. 

People with depression don't choose to do any of the above. It just happens.

Most people, like myself, find it hard to seek 'help' or got to a doctor. The reason I avoid it is because I'm embarrassed. I don't like to talk about it. I don't want people to think of me differently. I want people to think of me as happy, like there is nothing wrong. I don't want people to think that I am different. I want to be normal.

For example I created a completely different account so my friends wouldn't know about this.

Most of my friends know about my depression but I don't want them to know everything.  I refuse to tell my best friend because I'm scared she will treat and look at me differently.

Some depressed people get very low and want to show how they feel. It's hard to speak about. A lot of people result in self harm. It's a way for people to say, 'Look at that, that is how I'm feeling.' 

I used to, I would like to believe that I am safe with not doing so now. But self harm is more than just the cutting,it could be swallowing something or large quantities of alcohol or drugs.

The sad things is, nowadays people harm themselves for attention. So you never know if it is attention seeking or real ad has proper reasons.