Never Judge a Book by it's Cover

Chapter Ten - Final Chapter

 

          After two weeks of completely ignoring each other I was feeling more down than I ever had, with the exception of when Mandy passed away; my life just felt like a complete mess, and I really missed just being able to talk to Colt, even if it was when he was being rude to me, at least we were still talking. One of the basketball players Tommy had been asking me out for the last week and just needed to find an escape, needing someone to talk to I finally gave in and accepted to go out with him on a date. The date was awkward and we really didn’t have anything in common but having someone around to talk to was comforting none the less.

          We had only been seeing each other for about a week when I started to notice Tanya, the head cheer whore, hanging all over Colt by his locker; he didn’t really seem to return his interest to her but he also didn’t stop her from hanging off his arm all day either. I couldn’t help but feel a little jealous; I know that I had no claim over Colt but watching him with another girl still struck some cords in my heart. I tried my best to ignore them as I got my books for my next class out of my locker; two arms slipped around my waist and I tried not to shrug away from them. Tommy was a nice enough guy and all but I just wasn’t that into him; he was more of a distraction for me than anything else.

“Hey babe.” He whispered in my ear as he pulled my closer to him. I internally rolled my eyes at the given pet name; we had been seeing each other for a week and already I was only referred to as babe.

“Hey Tommy.” I replied turning around in his grip to face him; his lips came down to meet my cheek and again I had to force myself not to pull away.

          I know that I should just break it off with him and tell him the truth that I really wasn’t interested but he did serve as a nice distraction and judging by the cold look we were getting from Colt he didn’t like the fact that we were together; hey if I had to suffer though seeing him with Tanya he should have to suffer a little too right? I knew it was wrong trying to make him jealous but I didn’t see any other way that I could try to get him to talk to me; all other attempts that I had made at conversation he just shrugged off or chose to not acknowledge my presence at all. It really hurt me to be ignored by him like that; I know that what I said to him that night was wrong; I know that I had made one of the biggest mistakes of my life but he wouldn’t even give me a chance to explain.

“Hey isn’t that the girl that got blown up?” Tommy said breaking me out of my internal rant; my heart dropped at his words while I watched his finger point to the picture of Mandy hanging on my locker door.

          ‘Isn’t that the girl that got blown up’, the words echoed in my mind. How could he say it like that; how could he just throw it out there like her life meant nothing? I felt like someone dropped a boulder on my chest; my breaths were coming out in short bursts and I felt like all the oxygen was being sucked from my lungs. My eyes started to burn as salty tears began to blur my vision; I felt like the whole world was slowly starting to fall around me, pressing down on my shoulders with so much force that I found it hard to even stand up.

          I couldn’t stay there; I couldn’t stand to even look at Tommy’s face after what he said. Did he not know who she was to me; did he not know how much she meant to me? Even if he didn’t know, how could he say something like that about someone who had lost their life; did he have no heart at all? I pushed him away from me and took off down the hall; I had no idea where I was going all I knew was that I needed to get away from him before I did something stupid, like attack him like a rabid dog.